Finn Kendrick
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Jan 29, 2007 6:56:45 GMT -5
Finn had his breath cut short by Keagan's lips suddenly on his. It took him a moment to register what was going on and by the time he'd figured it out, Keagan was already pulling away. Finn wasn't having any of that. He quickly kissed her again, resting one hand on her hip and the other on her cheek, pulling Keag in closer. Finn felt his heartbeat speed up dramatically, going at twice it's normal rate. He couldn't help but find it slightly awkward that he was squatting beside the bed, so Finn pushed himself over Keag, flopped down beside her and kept kissing.
He didn't want to let go. Finn inched himself closer to Keag's body once more, broke the kiss to take a quick breath but then went right back to it. He touched the girl's face lightly, still feeling the wet streaks where her tears had been. The Ravenclaw wiped them away softly with his thumb before breaking the kiss again, quite reluctantly. Sighing, Finn couldn't help but smile broadly at Keagan, his eyes locking onto her. "Oh Keag," he said breathlessly, stroking her cheek. He wanted to add something else, but didn't know how it would go over. I'm so in love with you.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Jan 29, 2007 8:55:10 GMT -5
What had started as a short chaste kiss changed rather quickly as Finn pulled Keagan back in for another when she pulled away. Before she knew it he was on the bed beside her again. She could feel his thumb brushing at where her tears had been as his lips slid over her own and Keag almost started to cry again.
She leaned her head forward and rested her forehead on Finn's neck after he finally broke the kiss, fearing the scrutiny of his gaze. Keagan slowly wrapped her arms around his neck and hugged him tightly. 'What am I ever going to do with myself?' she thought, removing her head from his neck and gazing at the door to the room.
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Finn Kendrick
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Jan 29, 2007 9:12:02 GMT -5
Finn sighed contently as he felt Keag's arms wrapping around his neck. He looked down at her, trying to catch her eye again, but saw she was looking at the door. He looked too, wondering why it had caught her eye.
"What is it?" he asked her, his tone concerned.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Jan 29, 2007 9:15:21 GMT -5
"It isn't anything," Keagan replied, moving her forehead to his neck again and placing a soft kiss on the skin there. She closed her eyes as she held onto him and was unaware of the murmurings passing her lips until it was too late to stop them.
"Why am I such a mess?" she had murmured.
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Finn Kendrick
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Jan 29, 2007 9:27:03 GMT -5
Smiling when he felt her kiss, Finn couldn't stop his heart rate speeding up again. However, it faded quickly when he heard her speak. "You're not a mess," he told her, trying to smile, "Not more of a mess than I am, anyways."
Wrapping his arms around her again, Finn held her tight, feeling like he needed to protect her. He sighed deeply, just wanting her to stop second guessing herself. "You don't always need to feel like its your fault, Keag," he told her quietly, "Because none of it ever is. I hate it when you try and take the blame for everything, and make yourself unsure. You shouldn't."
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Jan 29, 2007 10:11:01 GMT -5
Keagan could feel Finn's pulse quicken as her lips accidentally brushed against his neck again. She tilted her face away from his neck, not wanting to push this too far.
"I hate this conflict in my head," she replied, not answering his argument because she was becoming tired of arguing.
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Finn Kendrick
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Jan 29, 2007 14:23:26 GMT -5
Finn just sighed. He didn't want Keagan to be so broken up over all this. "Is there anything I can say that'll convince you it's all going to be OK?" he asked, his tone concerned and his worry showing through his eyes. The Ravenclaw touched Keagan's chin, lifting her head up so he could look into her eyes.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Jan 29, 2007 14:57:37 GMT -5
"I know it will be," she murmured, allowing her chin to be lifted and looking up into his eyes, but glancing down again after seeing the worry there. He shouldn't distort his pretty eyes with his worry like that, especially by worrying over her. "Somehow. I just don't know how to push through, to make it feel okay right now."
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Finn Kendrick
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Jan 29, 2007 15:02:16 GMT -5
Finn really didn't like the sound of that. He felt like he was just making everything harder for her, and it was the exact opposite of what he wanted. Sighing, Finn let go of her chin and turned away. "Do you want me to leave?" he asked, already starting to get up, "I can if it'll make it easier right now." He didn't want to go; he really didn't. But he could if Keag felt it would be easier.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Jan 29, 2007 15:07:30 GMT -5
"I don't know," she murmured as Finn dropped her chin and she slumped back. "My heart doesn't want you to leave. Ever. It wants me to throw caution to the wind. But my head..." She knew what her head was saying. Her head was saying that if caution was gone, they would both end up hurting and alone. Her head was saying that she had already put their relationship in jeopardy, and was continuing to do so. Her head was saying she shouldn't have even come today. Where was the middle line?
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Finn Kendrick
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Jan 29, 2007 15:13:33 GMT -5
"Which one are you willing to betray?" Finn asked, turning back to look at Keag. He tried to keep the look off his face, but he eyes were showing his true feelings of hopefulness that Keagan was willing to betray her head, just this once.
Still, he knew he couldn't get his hopes up. Taking Keag's hand into his, Finn smiled weakly. "Whatever you decide is fine," he assured her, even though he wasn't too sure himself.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Jan 29, 2007 15:19:31 GMT -5
Keagan's mouth opened to answer, but she knew she didn't have an answer. She looked at him, just looking, for a moment, wondering if he was really saying there wasn't a middle option.
"I don't want to choose," she said quietly, even as the rational part of her mind began to become stronger as she flipped the options around in her head. Her head was where the consequences were foreseen, where he decisions were made, and it was gaining the upper hand. If there were only two options, she needed to decide which option would hurt her, would hurt them least. But for that question, she really didn't know. And judging by the hopeful look in Finn's eyes, he wouldn't be a very objective support for her decision.
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Finn Kendrick
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Jan 29, 2007 18:18:34 GMT -5
"Well, a decision needs to be made," Finn told her, his voice starting to sound irritated. He wasn't mad at Keagan really, he was more mad that he had let himself get so lost in this all. He just wanted to know that it wasn't all for nothing. Keag had said that it wasn't before, but now Finn wasn't so sure. If she couldn't make a decision, maybe it was all for nothing.
Moving so he was sitting on the edge of the bed again, Finn took up his previous position of elbows-on-knees and head-in-hands, letting out yet another heavy sigh. Finn undid the first couple buttons of his shirt, starting to feel hot. He huffed slightly, running his hands anxiously through his hair. "I just don't know what to do anymore," he confessed quietly.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Jan 29, 2007 21:46:43 GMT -5
Keagan crawled across the bed to where Finn sat on the edge and she wrapped her arms loosely around his shoulders, placing her cheek against his shoulder. She sat like that for a while, just thinking, and then turned her face to plant another soft kiss on the bare skin of his neck.
"My head's not saying "Never", you know," she stated quietly, squeezing him a bit tighter. Though she knew where her decision was going, she still didn't want to let the Ravenclaw go.
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Finn Kendrick
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Jan 29, 2007 21:57:14 GMT -5
"Then what is it saying, Keag?" Finn asked, turning his head to look at her. He placed his hands on her arms around his shoulders and leaned in so he was right close to her. "I know what mine's saying," he stated, "And my heart's saying the same thing. And I can't listen to either of them."
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