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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 5, 2006 7:17:05 GMT -5
((Takes place after Ravenclaw Meeting))
Lily wasn't sure if she expected them to do it or not, but she certainly didn't expect that sort of reaction. People were getting all mad over it when it was only supposed to be fun. So upon leaving the Ravenclaw common room, she ran all the way up to one of the towers. There was a secret room she had found here once and right now, she just wanted to be alone. She searched the wall. She couldn't remember which brick it was. She tapped several frantically hoping to find the right one. Finally, she just gave up and slumped against the wall, knees pulled up to her chest, trying hard not to cry.
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Post by scottmichael on May 5, 2006 11:37:55 GMT -5
Scott followed the girl from the common room up to the towers. he hadn't been in the towers yet, so he made sure not to let her out of his sight, it would do him no good to be lost and her to be alone. As he watched Lily tap the wall with her wand, he smiled. It seemed almost as though she was trying to enter Diagon Alley from the Leaky Cauldron. Words did not come from Scott though, he wanted to wait patiently, wait for her calm down a bit.
When she fell against the wall he decided it was time to go to her. Quietly, Scott walked over to the girl and sat down beside her. he sat so he was facing her, it made things easier to talk. As he watched her a moment longer, he decided to do one more thing before he spoke. Scott scooted closer to just Lily and wrapped his arms around her. he figured if she didn't want him to hug her she would push him away, but for the moment he just held onto her and waited to see what she would do. "It wasn't a joke was it, just Lily?"
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 5, 2006 15:41:16 GMT -5
Lily made no effort to move as she shook her head quietly. "It was my idea and I thought it would be a lot of fun," she said quietly. "But they're all against it. All of them. That's why I wanted Kellen to speak. Most of them still like him. Not me, they don't like me."
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Post by scottmichael on May 5, 2006 16:20:06 GMT -5
"I wouldn't exactly say they were all against it. Captain," that was what he had deemed Allegra, "was more hurt than anything that Kellen didn't speak to her first. If I had to venture a guess I would say she's pretty hung-up on him and since he had planned something with another girl, she found you to be a bit of a threat so the idea was a bad idea to her." Scott rested his chin on the top of Lily's head when he paused a moment.
"And maybe the plan was a little over the top, though I don't think many heard you say you knew how to return every precious little hair their heads." he grinned at the thought of every Ravenclaw walking around bald for the rest of their time at Hogwarts. Boy, how the new students would pray not to be put in Ravenclaw, they'd all think it was something like a ritual that had to be done. "I, on the other hand, thought the plan sounded fun. I wouldn't be too happy to have no hair, but if every other person had no hair I certainly wouldn't want to be the only one with hair. Maybe rather than having all the Ravenclaws go bald, you guys should've just had us dye sections of our hair everyday, hmmm?" Scott really had thought the plan was a good one, at least a plan would have been good.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 5, 2006 16:25:30 GMT -5
"Allegra you mean?" Lily asked quietly. "Yeah, she went with Kellen to the yule ball earlier this year. I told Drew that Kellen had made me promise not to tell everyone, but he didn't believe me. But Kellen had."
"We did know though," Lily said. "Kellen and I made sure to research and plan everything out. And then he goes and says it was all a joke? Some friend he is. He's taking a lot of the heat, I know, I just left him there to take it. But I feel it against me. So many of them there are." She closed her eyes. She didn't feel like she was making any sense.
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Post by scottmichael on May 5, 2006 17:10:08 GMT -5
Scott nodded his head lightly, so as not to hurt Lily's head, at her question. he listened to her carefully, and tried his best to follow her train of thought, but failed. "Kellen made you promise not to tell anyone he went to a ball with Captain?" That was the part that had really confused him. Why would Kellen take Captain to a ball and not want anyone to know?
"I would say he became scared no one wanted to go with the idea. I'm sorry he backed out on you, but there seemed to be a few people that were out-rightly mad about the idea. And saying it was a joke was the best way to get everyone to cool their jets." Scott didn't appreciate that Kellen had backed out of a plan, that seemed almost cowardly to him, though they weren't in Gryffindor. "And what do you feel against you? Heat and pressure?"
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 5, 2006 17:13:17 GMT -5
"No about the plan," Lily said. "Being bald and painting our heads and everything. We were going to tell some people, not everyone but some." Lily was quiet for a moment. "Resentment mostly. Drew and I were getting sort of back on track. Leggy thinks, well I'm not sure, some stuff. She was trying to help me before. Ari and I are sort of just, I don't know the word so it. And Charon and I don't get on at all. Dante and you are probably the only two I get on with in that room."
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Post by scottmichael on May 5, 2006 20:44:05 GMT -5
Realization dawned on Scott and mentally kicked himself for sounding so stupid with his question. Of course she was talking about the plan, not a ball. "And why would you feel resentment from them?" he asked lightly. he still didn't know very much about her, but he felt he knew quite a bit at the same time. Why would anyone feel resentment towards such a lovely little thing? he asked himself. So far Scott hadn't had any problems with her, in fact he really enjoyed her company. This was the reason he couldn't understand why anyone would feel anything but positive things for her.
If just Lily decided she didn't want to tell him, he wouldn't force it from her. Instead he would just continue to wonder why, and perhaps hope she would tell him one day.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 5, 2006 20:48:34 GMT -5
"I just do," Lily said quietly. "They used to be my friends, but when Drew and I had the big falling out, it seemed like I just had a falling out with everyone. I'm so unhappy all the time. I avoid the tower and most human contact because it's too painful for me. Inside I'm breaking, breaking so badly and it's like I'm powerless to control it."
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Post by scottmichael on May 5, 2006 21:07:19 GMT -5
"You and Drew?" he asked suddenly. Scott was actually interested in that tid bit. Had there been something between the two of them once? he quickly snapped out of his thoughts asshe continued. "So because something happened between two people everyone had to choose a side, and they all chose the side that you weren't on?"
That seemed unfair to Scott, afterall, they were all in the same house. They all had to live together, sleep together, and attend classes together. "And I truly hope you don't break, just Lily. I know what's like to feel as though everything is going to shatter at any moment." Scott thought for a moment about his sister and what had happened. "And I know what's like to hold your own against that pain. That was the reason I turned to pranks. It gave me something to do, something that could pull laughs, something I couldn't do. When I heard others laughing, I knew it was something that could keep me in high spirits if I did it." Scott paused again, thinking of how to continue. he moved his arms slightly, tightened his grip around her. "The key is it to find a way to fight it. And I would like you to know that if you ever feel as though you can't fight it, I'll help you to." he thought that would help, though he wasn't sure. Scott moved his head, lightly brushed the top of the flowers head with his lips and sat there breathing in her scent.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 5, 2006 21:13:37 GMT -5
"He was my best friend," Lily said quietly. "But I screwed everything up. We're doing a little better now, but not a lot. It's a rocky road recovering from kissing a guy who's had a longtime girlfriend." Lily was quiet. "I don't think they chose sides on purpose, at least, I hope not."
"I write," Lily said. "To let out the pain. But sometimes it just doesn't feel enough. I feel so alone and I feel like I can't fight it. And sometimes, when I'm at my weakest, and my most vulenerable . . ." she grew quiet. "I hear voices. I know that makes me sound crazy and maybe I am, I don't know anymore. They were gone for a while, I managed to make them go away. But they came back. They came back."
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Post by scottmichael on May 5, 2006 21:38:34 GMT -5
She kissed him? he asked himself. Needless to say, Scott was a bit taken aback by that. he thought she was going to say something like they dated, but that wasn't what she said. She said he was her best friend, and obviously he had a girlfriend. And obvioulsy she had kissed him. "How long could a long-time relationship be at his age?" he asked. he knew Drew was in a lower year than him, and most didn't start dating until fifth year.
Scott listened to her speak as he continued to rest his lips on the top of her head. "Maybe being on your own isn't the way to fight whatever it is. Maybe you need another's help." Scott wasn't sure what to really think about this, so he ventured a guess. It was the best he could do. The voices part made him wonder, but he still sat there and held her.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 6, 2006 12:37:58 GMT -5
"It's been at least 2 years," Lily said. "They were going out when I got here. I never asked how long, but I know they're totally devoted to each other," she said quietly. "I don't even know to this day, why exactly it was I did something so entirely stupid."
Lily shrugged. "I'm mostly used to fighting things alone," she said, leaning her head against him and closing her eyes. "The first time they stopped was one of the first times that I felt loved in my life. One of the first times I didn't feel quite so alone." She was quiet for a moment. "I never should have gone back to Germany again. That's what brought them back, I know it is."
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Post by scottmichael on May 6, 2006 12:51:12 GMT -5
"Maybe at the time it felt right for you. I'm not saying it was the right thing to have done, but maybe it was something that needed to happen." Scott strongly believed that things happened for reasons. If it was supposed to happen it would, if it wasn't then it wouldn't. "Maybe it had to happen for you to see there was nothing there other than friendship."
Scott felt her move her shoulders, then felt her head lean against him. "I know I've already maybed a lot of things, but I have another," he said with a short chuckle. What kind of a word was maybed? "Maybe things were meant for you to work out on your own, but now things have changed for some reason or other and you need another' help." Scott moved slightly and rested his chin on the flower's head once more. "Is it possible that coming back from Germany where you spent time with that little girl, Megan I think it was, made you feel more alone because you didn't have someone to feel close with?"
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 6, 2006 12:55:16 GMT -5
Lily was quiet. "Megan had an older sister too," she said quietly. "Morgan. I was friend's with her too. Now this summer I've got to go back to Germany, to testify in a court trial against their father." She grew quiet again. "I've always felt alone. Even when there is someone close to me. Megan's wonderful and I love her as much as anyone can love someone, but she's seven. I can't expect her to carry the weight of my world on her shoulders. I became her sister now that Morgan's gone. She needs me more than ever."
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