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Post by dan on Dec 16, 2005 18:01:02 GMT -5
" You ok? " Dan asked as he sat down next to Keagan on the sofa, his legs propped out on the floor as he leaned forward and let his elbows rest on his knees. " Better. " He said with a small smile to her as he leaned back into the cushion.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Dec 16, 2005 18:07:42 GMT -5
"Meh," Keagan replied, her brow furrowed slightly as she gazed inquisitively at Dan once more. "Those shoes pinch." It was obvious she was only covering what she was really thinking, but she was telling the truth. She needed to buy new shoes, but that was a concern for another time, for a visit to Hogsmeade once the school year got rolling again. Once again, her fingers found the material of her skirt, and Keagan turned her gaze to the fire that still burned brightly.
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Post by dan on Dec 16, 2005 18:21:56 GMT -5
Dan smiled lightly then, as he moved toward Keagan a little to talk, said, " So, what's really up? " He guessed there was something more than her shoes, her distracted attitude and her resuming to play with her skirt gave her away a bit. Dan smiled still, it was questioning but confirmed something.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Dec 16, 2005 18:25:30 GMT -5
"Maybe I'm just looking for some assurance." Keag's words were harsh, but her tone was gentle. Every time she wanted Dan to alleviate her fears, her questions, her confusion and her uncertainty, he seemed to reciprocate it. She shouldn't expect so much from him, especially considering the newness of their...relationship? What was it they had now?...But she couldn't help it.
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Post by dan on Dec 17, 2005 6:22:03 GMT -5
" Keagan, I... " Dan was suprised by her words but not so much. He should've seen it coming. He had a trivial look on his face as she said all of this but when she finished Dan looked thoughtful. He looked over oth her then asked, " What would you like to do? "
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Dec 17, 2005 10:10:49 GMT -5
"I don't know," she said softly as her eyes ceased to see the fire. Then, louder, she repeated it. "I don't know!" Squinting, a drizzle of tears flooded over her flushed cheeks, a few on one cheek, a couple on the other. "All I know right now is that when I'm alone, I feel emotionally empty. And when I'm with you, I feel happy, and yet scared."
Her voice got small again. "Everybody I get close to leaves me and disappears. Completely." It was true. First it had been Colleen, then Joseph. But admitting it, Keagan felt like an emotional wreck. Up one moment, down the next. Sighing, she opened her eyes and glanced at Dan, hoping he'd see that it was uncertainty they held, not pain.
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Post by dan on Dec 26, 2005 18:36:28 GMT -5
Dan looked into Keagan's eyes with an uncertain gaze himself, he felt obligated but not quite sure what to. To Keagan? To himself? He couldn't have bothered to guess what it was. But he dried her tears with his hands and smiled, " We'll figure this out. " He stated very softly to her.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Dec 27, 2005 2:33:01 GMT -5
As Dan reached up to wipe her tears, Keagan squeezed her eyes shut to let the remaining tears fall, then reached her right hand to Dan's left wrist and held it against her cheek. She opened her left eye and gazed back into Dan's eyes with it as she leaned against the soft touch of his hand on her burning cheek. "How?" she mouthed, with barely a whisper of sound.
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Post by dan on Dec 27, 2005 14:39:44 GMT -5
" Keagan.... " Dan said, letting her name fall from his mouth, " I'm sorry. I don't know.... " He seemed to falter for his words then he started over. " I'm not going to leave. Ok? "
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Dec 27, 2005 15:45:04 GMT -5
Keagan nodded into his hand, opening her right eye to look into his as well. "I'm sorry I'm such an emotional wreck," she said softly, apologetically. "Thank you for staying." Attempting a smile, Keagan's eyes still held uncertainty, but they were less clouded. She sniffed once, then settled back to the smile.
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Post by dan on Dec 27, 2005 15:49:37 GMT -5
" No problem, " Dan said, letting his face form into a smile. He gave it to her welcomingly. " You're not an emotional wreck. I've seen worse. You shold've seen my cousin Terry when she was younger. Would've made Godzilla turn around and whimper. " He said with a short laugh that came deep within his chest. Dan looked back to Keagan, his smile slightly wider than it had beeen previously.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Dec 27, 2005 15:57:46 GMT -5
"You lie. I'm a roller coaster and I'm taking you along for the ride," Keagan said, though she laughed slightly at the Godzilla comment, as well. Then she realized she still held his hand against her cheek and, blushing, she dropped her hand. Still smiling, she bit her lip slightly as she glanced toward the fire flame and then back at the boy before her.
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Post by dan on Dec 28, 2005 12:38:38 GMT -5
Dan chuckled slightly as Keagan blushed, it was a nice blush, well suited for her face. " I guess I should buckle my seatbelt, then? " He said quietly, taking her free hand in his. " So, what would you like to do now? " Asked Dan. He thought about Keagan's little break down and wanted to comfort her if he could. Dan had always been a good guys to chear up girls.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Dec 28, 2005 14:30:27 GMT -5
"As long as you have one, you'd better buckle it," Keagan replied, giggling slightly, only slightly, as she slid off of her legs which now sat uncomfortably underneath her. Extending them toward the arm of the couch, her upper body was brought closer to Dan's, and Keagan eased her head onto his shoulder as she spoke. "I dunno," she replied to his question. She trailed the index finger of her left hand over their intertwined hands and continued. "We could just sit here. And look at the fire. And talk."
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Post by dan on Dec 29, 2005 16:09:48 GMT -5
Dan looked down to their hands, he relaxed as Keagan's head nestled into his shoulder. " Sounds like a plan to me, " He said, and for once in the whole night he thought back to Cam. They had allready parted ways but he felt a little guilty, it didn't show at all but he felt a twinge of guilt as he bent down slightly to kiss Keagan's head. " Would you like that? " He finally asked, thinking sitting there would be just fine with him, even if all they did was look at the slowly dying fire and talk.
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