Layla Jimenez
Witch
Healer-In-Training
[on:*le pounce*][of:...in hiding]
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 20, 2006 20:17:32 GMT -5
Layla found appeal in what Lily said. She didn't like feeling upset, especially at people she loved. She didn't like the need to be around people because she was automatically upset about those things when she was by herself. It hurt her so much sometimes. So if she just didn't care...
"Have you always done that? Just shutting everyone out? Does it help?"
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 20, 2006 20:27:16 GMT -5
"No," Lily said quietly. "Not really. I haven't always done that; I don't like doing that. I'm just the kind of person what alienates everyone no matter how hard I try." She was quiet. She closed her notebook and laid her pencil on top. She would write more later. She rolled over onto her back to look up at the clouds.
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Layla Jimenez
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Healer-In-Training
[on:*le pounce*][of:...in hiding]
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 20, 2006 20:36:31 GMT -5
Layla quickly wiped the tear that finally left her eye when she saw Lily move. She turned her head and pretended to puck at the grass beside her. "I guess everyone has different ways of dealing with stuff," she said in a small voice. "That's yours."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 20, 2006 20:58:00 GMT -5
"Yeah," Lily said quietly. "I wish it wasn't though. I wish I didn't have to ignore them, deny them, run away from them, or shove them on others. My probelms, that is I mean. I mean, I've done worse to take away the pain. But I wish that there was no pain to take away. It would make everything so much easier."
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Layla Jimenez
Witch
Healer-In-Training
[on:*le pounce*][of:...in hiding]
Posts: 529
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 20, 2006 22:53:19 GMT -5
Sighing deeply, Layla realized how tired she was. This was probably one of most exhausting conversations she'd had in a while. She struggled to keep her eyes open and eyed a cloud overhead, willing it to take form of something she recognized. She conceded to the fact that she couldn't change it, things just came the way they were made. All she could do is make the best of them. "I don't know what to think anymore. Nothing makes sense, whether it's an easier way to do things or not."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 21, 2006 6:47:36 GMT -5
Lily nodded. She fell silent. She wasn't sure she should ask Layla the question she was about to. "What are you hiding?" She asked her quietly. She knew that Layla was hiding something - she had hid many things herself and knew what a hiding person was like. She hoped though, that Layla wouldn't be offended by the question.
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Layla Jimenez
Witch
Healer-In-Training
[on:*le pounce*][of:...in hiding]
Posts: 529
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 21, 2006 8:23:09 GMT -5
Layla had been tracing a cloud above with her wand. She stopped in her tracks when Lily asked her what she was hiding. She'd been caught completely off guard and wasn't sure how to answer. After hearing Lily's problems, she felt like her's were trivial. She avoided looking at Lily and resumed the tracing. After a bit of silence, she said what came to her first.
"I don't know exactly. I used to think I did, but it changed when I got back."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 21, 2006 12:42:29 GMT -5
Lily nodded. "I know the feeling," she said. "Everytime you think you've figured out what you've got to fix, you just find out there's something even deeper underneath. It's like it never ends." She fell silent. "If you need anyone to talk to Layla, I'm here. It's what I want to do when I get out of Hogwarts. Be a counselor."
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Layla Jimenez
Witch
Healer-In-Training
[on:*le pounce*][of:...in hiding]
Posts: 529
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 21, 2006 13:10:23 GMT -5
Layla kept her eyes on the sky as she heard Lily talk. What she'd said pretty much sounded right, but that still didn't help her figure out what it was that was bothering her. "Thanks," she told her. "I just wish I could figure out how to say it... that way it'd be easier to talk about. I thought I'd feel better when I got here, but it hasn't changed much." She stared silently for a few long moments, as though willing her thoughts to take form, but failed. "It's just that..." She stopped again and sighed. "I don't know..."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 21, 2006 14:04:14 GMT -5
Lily nodded. "That's qlright," she said quietly. "It will come in time and then you won't want to know, because it was easier not knowing." She closed her eyes and breathed in deeply, just thinking. Suddenly she coughed. "Gah, a bug." She said. "Nasty."
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Layla Jimenez
Witch
Healer-In-Training
[on:*le pounce*][of:...in hiding]
Posts: 529
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 21, 2006 14:21:20 GMT -5
Layla looked at Lily and smiled. "Thanks," she said again. She put her wand up again, tracing another cloud, this time leaving a blue streak where the tip of her wand had been. It was starting to look like a cat paw. She lifted herself up to her elbows and looked at lily when she started couching. "Are you ok?" When she'd said it was a bug that had got caught in her throat, Layla fell back on the ground and laughed loudly. "That is pretty gross!"
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 21, 2006 22:12:06 GMT -5
"Why do they do that?" Lily said. "Do you think it's true? I heard once that the average person swallows something like nine spiders when they're asleep. Oh goodness, the first time I heard that, I couldn't sleep for a week. I was positive the spiders were going to take me over or I would swallow a posionous one and die."
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Layla Jimenez
Witch
Healer-In-Training
[on:*le pounce*][of:...in hiding]
Posts: 529
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 21, 2006 22:23:46 GMT -5
Layla looked at Lily in shocking horror. "Nine!? Oh goodness, we have to find a charm to keep our mouths CLOSED at night. I'm never sleeping aagain." Layla swallowed hard. "Ugh. This castle must have odd insects crawling about-" She stopped herself to breath a bit. She had officially grossed herself out. "Ok I'm shutting my mouth now... forever," she said grinning.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 21, 2006 22:46:41 GMT -5
"I'm not sure," Lily said. "That's only what I've heard. I hope it's wrong though. It always disturbed me. Maybe we can find a protective covering to put over our mouths at night. You know, like misquito netting, only just for our mouths. Cause I imagine it would be pretty hard to breathe with your mouth closed, not to mention, how are you going to know if it's closed if you're sleeping."
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Layla Jimenez
Witch
Healer-In-Training
[on:*le pounce*][of:...in hiding]
Posts: 529
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 21, 2006 23:01:47 GMT -5
Layla physically shuddered at the mental image of insects crawling into her mouth and her skin broke out in goosebumps. "Ew ew ew... ok we need to stop this," she told her, giggling. "Think of something yummy... like... mashed potatoes."
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