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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Feb 19, 2007 21:57:59 GMT -5
And then Keagan's body, which had been rather pliant, went completely rigid; this was the first time Keag had gotten the impression that Finn meant more than a feeling when he said "love" and she didn't like the feeling it gave her, even if she didn't know if he really meant it that way. She leaned forward slightly as he pulled back, mostly so she could hold her own weight.
She had to know what he meant.
"Finn, what do you mean when you say you want to "love" me?" she asked, hugging herself and looking back at him through the corners of her eyes.
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Feb 19, 2007 22:04:11 GMT -5
Finn certainly hadn't meant it that way. He sighed deeply, feeling his cheeks flush that too familiar pink and he stumbled for words, trying to right his wrong. He was quickly blowing it, all because he was too impatient. How many more times could she forgive him?
"Let me say it," he replied, "Let me say it and believe that I mean it. Let me feel it, and stop pushing me away." Finn pulled his eyes away from Keagan's, feeling them start to sting. He blinked a few times, determined to not let it happen now.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Feb 19, 2007 22:09:09 GMT -5
Keagan let out a deep breath she hadn't known she was holding. Finn's words rang true, but she couldn't help that they had rang the other way, too.
"You're allowed to say it, I just...can't believe it. Not right now," she answered, looking away, ashamed by her issues. "And I only push you away because I don't want you to expect me to, or to be hurt by my failure to reciprocate."
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Feb 19, 2007 22:14:44 GMT -5
"I don't care," Finn replied in a whisper, stroking her face lightly, "I don't care if you can't say it back. That I can wait for. What can I do to make you believe me?" Even he could hear the pathetic almost-desperate hint in his voice. Finn cursed himself, wishing there was something he could do and wishing he was slightly less pathetic.
Turning his gaze back, Finn met Keagan's. The burning had stopped for now, but his nose was still red; the signature giveaway that his eyes had been tearing. Inwardly, he was scowling, wishing it wasn't such a dead giveaway but knowing there was nothing he could do. He just hoped his pathetic exterior didn't make Keagan do something or say something she didn't want to, or didn't believe.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Feb 19, 2007 22:26:44 GMT -5
"You can't make me...I just...have to do it," she stated, focusing on her crossed arms instead of on Finn's desperate face. For a moment, she looked up, and her eyes locked with Finn's, but she still tore her gaze away, hating that she caused him to feel so miserable.
"If you want to love me, love me. But I don't understand it, won't believe it." Keagan's eyes looked up into Finn's; hers were damp, but not tearing. "I'm so sorry, Finn."
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Feb 20, 2007 21:52:48 GMT -5
Sighing again, Finn just...he didn't even know. He wasn't sure whether he wanted to comfort her more and kick himself exceptionally hard. It seemed as though both were in order, but which one came first? He decided his punishment could wait and Keagan's well being was much more important.
"Keagan please," Finn started, but then grinned slightly, "Would you stop apologizing?"
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Feb 20, 2007 23:59:11 GMT -5
"Oh, shush you," Keagan replied, though without her trademark extended tongue. She couldn't help that she felt shyly awkward here now, and she felt like she needed to think a bit. Not about the relationship (or was it future relationship?) so much as her own sanity. The Gryffindor slid so her legs were hanging off the side of the bed, and then she turned to Finn with a subtle grin.
"That's my line," she laughed lightly and set her feet on the ground. "I think I should be going, though. We've been together for quite a while today."
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Feb 22, 2007 20:58:46 GMT -5
The broad grin on the boy's face slowly started to disappear as Keag mentioned that she should leave. Of course, Finn didn't want her to. But he figured he'd already caused enough trouble and grief so he wouldn't try to hold her back if she really wanted to go. "Oh," he said quietly, turning to sit on the edge of the bed as well, "OK well uh...can I at least..uh..walk you, like...back?"
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Feb 22, 2007 21:06:14 GMT -5
"Of course," she replied, grinning. "I must warn you, though, it's not very far."
She paused for a moment, pondering that. How long had they been in this room, just a few yards away from her Common Room? It seemed like quite a while, which was dandy, but strange. It made Keag wonder - how out of it had she been that she couldn't remember where the entrance to Gryffindor Tower was? And what might she have said in such a state that she would normally be embarrassed about?
She couldn't believe it was only now that she was asking these questions. "So, how out of it was I earlier?" she asked as she stood. Keagan wasn't sure if he'd know what she meant or not, but if she had to, she could elaborate.
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Feb 22, 2007 21:22:34 GMT -5
Finn just shrugged slightly in response, not really in much of a talkative mood now. "You weren't that out of it," he replied truthfully, but a smile started to crack at one thing that came to mind, "Although I do remember some vague reference to spanking and something about schtance, which I've get to decipher."
Standing up, Finn headed to the door, grabbing the sweater he was determined to keep with him now and opened the door for Keagan. "I wouldn't worry about how out of it you were," he continued, trying to smile, "I'm not gonna hold it against you."
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Feb 22, 2007 21:31:12 GMT -5
"Oh Merlin," Keagan muttered at a reference to spanking. What in the world would have brough that up? Of course, a silly, girly blush had graced her features now as she stepped toward the door behind Finn and forced a smile at the chivalrous act of opening a door for a lady.
"Promise?" she asked, still feeling awkwardly shy.
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Feb 22, 2007 21:40:39 GMT -5
Smiling more genuinely now, Finn found her exceptionally cute when she blushed. "I promise," Finn told her, his eyes finding hers as he spoke, "But just so you know, I think you were trying to say 'thank you' and it came out 'spank you.' It wasn't anything...inappropriate." Finn chuckled slightly and followed Keagan out of the room, shutting the door behind them.
Standing beside Keag, Finn's hand hanging at his side soon found hers and he twirled his fingers in between Keagan's, almost absent mindedly. "Which way?" he asked.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Feb 22, 2007 21:48:40 GMT -5
The bit of extra information calmed Keagan a bit, but she still couldn't believe she'd ever lose control enough to actually use the word "spank" in any situation.
Feeling Finn's hand around her own, Keagan squeezed her hand before lifting their joined hands and pointing them toward the left. "Thatta way."
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Post by Finn Kendrick on Feb 22, 2007 21:54:28 GMT -5
"Onward then, you know where you're going," Finn pointed out, waiting to be pulled along by Keagan. He was hoping to drag out this pathetically short walk as along as possible, because he really didn't want her to leave. Was he being clingy? Probably. Should be stop? Probably.
"How far exactly?" he questioned suddenly.
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Post by Keagan Gerislynn on Feb 22, 2007 22:18:06 GMT -5
"Okey doke!" Keagan exclaimed, tugging on Finn's hand and hauling him behind her down the corridor. She couldn't go very far before slowing a bit, though. He just didn't want to help at all, though she supposed that was understandable.
"How far? You didn't think I'd actually drag you straight up to the Common Room entrance, did you?" she asked, stopping to smirk at him. "I'm not sure how lost I'll get you before I let you go."
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