And I Won't Be Coming Back ((Nic, Open))

[hermione7lunaroc]

Lily was finally ready to leave. The hardest part about it had been the common room. She had kind of just stared there for the longest time, looking around, before taking her trunk all the way down to the first floor. She was leaving Hogwarts, this time not like before though, this time for good. She knew there was no going back, no looking back. And this was her one final good-bye. She set her trunk down and sat upon it, waiting for Nic, the one person she needed to say good-bye to. She had owled him earlier and told her to meet her here. She hadn't said that she was leaving yet, but it wasn't hard to figure out. She wondered if she would run into anyone else here as she left, or if it would just be Nic. She was going to miss this castle, but she knew that all of this was simply for the best.

[Nicolae Torque]

Nic was wrapping a scarf around his neck as he came up the stairs from the dugeons. He spotted Lily and started talking before he realized she was sitting on top of her turnk. "Hey, babe. Just got your owl and," Nic stopped short. He was still a few paces from Lily as he took in the situation. Nic quickly cross the space between them and stared hard at her trunk that clearly had her name on it. "What the hell Lily?"

[hermione7lunaroc]

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner," Lily said quietly looking down. "Making my decision to leave hasn't really been easy and it's hard saying good-bye." She didn't know how Nic would respond. She had, for one, not even told him in the letter that she was leaving. And now, she was leaving shortly without giving him so much of a warning. This was probably going to be the last time she ever saw Nic. She looked up at him, taking in his face, trying to read some sort of expression on it.

[Nicolae Torque]

The only expression on his face was anger. Pure anger, though it was to cover his sadness, his pain. "Why, what did I do this time?" Nic didn't mean for it to come out like that. He always sounded like he was whining with her and he dind't like that one bit. He was a man. A man from the hood. But ..his pretty blond hair blue eyed angel was leaving and he didn't know why.

[hermione7lunaroc]

"It's nothing you did," Lily said quietly, sighing. "I swear I'm not running away this time. Hogwarts has been both good and bad to me, but it's time to go back to where I was raised and make things right. It's too dangerous here right now and I've been offered life elsewhere and I talked it over with Matt and we both agreed it would be best for me to go." She looked down, unable to meet his eyes. It was so hard, saying good-bye when she knew, for certain, without a doubt, she was never coming back this time.

[Nicolae Torque]

Nic stopped. "WHO THE HELL IS MATT?" Nic wanted to shake her. Why would she make this huge life changing decision with some guy than with him. Wasn't he important to make these decisions with her. Didn't she even think about him. "How can this place be dangerous...this isn't dangerous. Gurl your crazy, where you were raised, that's some scary shiz-nit. I swear Lily-girl if you go I won't talk to ya again. I won't write, I won't floo, I won't do nothin."

[hermione7lunaroc]

"Calm down Nic, please," Lily said, tears springing her eyes. "This is hard enough for me as it is. Matt is my half brother, my current guardian." She was quiet. "Then don't write." She said quietly. "Hurt me like that. It's not as if I haven't been hurt enough before. Things are different there now. There's a new headmistress and they need me. For my English. That's becoming so much more important. They've offered me a position, muggle studies, upon two years after I graduate, but I have to graduate from there. And I'm going to start teaching the younger kids English." Didn't Nic see that going there would give her purpose and something to do with her life?

[Nicolae Torque]

Nic stopped and listened. It seemed she had her whole life planned. Of course it didn't involve him and he hand never heard of this Matt so he was confused. Nic opened his wider and looked at Lily. "I...don't know you." Nic shook his head slightly. There was so much he didn't know about her and that hurt. "Whateva, Lily. Go do you, be somebody. I'll just be here...waiting." Nic was trying to use guilt.

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"I'm sorry Nic," Lily said quietly. "Really I am. I wish I didn't have to leave you like this. I wish I didn't go, but there's just some things that have to happen." She was quiet for a moment and sat back down on her trunk. "For a long time, I wished that you could come with me," she said quietly. "I thought about asking you, but for one, you don't know German and for another, I could never ask you to give up Hogwarts. You were the only reason I almost stayed."

[Nicolae Torque]

Nic shook his head more to stop her words than actually telling her no. He didn't like this at all. She was just leaving again. "You're running away. Iknow how ya been feelin about dis place, but runnin is not da answer, girly girl." Nic watch her stop and just sit down as though she was defeated. Or maybe just tired of arguing with him. "Look, I ain't gonna be happy wid dis and make it all right between us. I think dis is shiddy a real sitty thing ta do ta me. So if ya leavin then go. Leave."

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"I'm not running away," Lily said tiredly. "I'm sick of running away and that's not what I'm doing here. Please don't say it is. What do I have to run from anymore?" She shook her head quietly than stood up. She went over to Nic and wrapped her arms around him tight, burying her face in his chest. "Promise me you won't forget me. I don't care if you find yourself another girl," Okay, she did care, but she was saying this for his sake. "But just don't forget me. It'll be all too easy for people here to do it."

[Nicolae Torque]

Nic sighed an on his breath if she was listening would have heard hims say, "you're running from us." But she must not have heard or maybe she did, because she pressed herself tight into his body embracing him though his arms stayed at his side. "I won't promise you nothing. I'm tired of makin promises and then you still runnin. I will try my darndest to forget ya. To never remember how good it feels with you in my arms." Nic wrapped his hands around her slender frame. "Or how good ya feel. How good you smell." NIc pushed her away.

[hermione7lunaroc]

"I'm sorry Nic," Lily said quietly. "I suppose I better just go then." She was hurt when he pushed her away, but she knew that she deserved it. She wasn't running away, but she knew that was what everyone would think. Everyone always did. She picked up her trunk and she moved towards the door. She stopped for a moment though and looked at Nic, giving him a chance to change his mind. Tears filled her eyes and her heart broke into a million peices. She wished he hadn't said she was running away.

[Nicolae Torque]

Nic watched her and more than anything he wanted to grab her and stop her, but he couldn't. Instead he just watched her and hoped she woudl come running back to him. Sure it was cheesy, but that's what they did in the movies and that's what he was hoping for . something like tha t movies. Something where she comes back to him. Anything but her eyes tearing up and he looking like the biggest jerk in the world, for not understanding or caring enough that she had to live her own life without him. But as much as he understood and even respected her for what she was doing he couldn't do it. He just couldn't let her know that he understood and it was okay, because he was such a jerk and so selfish. He wanted her to stay. Because her staying and being miserable was better than her leaving and being happy without him.

[hermione7lunaroc]

He had made up his mind then. There was no changing it. Lily gripped her trunk tighter. "Good-bye Nic," she said quietly. She turned around and went through the door. She didn't believe for a moment she was actually doing it. She was actually leaving. It was hard and yet at the same time, she believed it was what she had to do. And she wasn't running away, no matter what anyone said.

((Good-bye - I thank you Nic for all the wonderful times with Lily and the rest of HR too - I'll miss you guys))