Drew Thornton
Ministry of Magic
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 17, 2005 0:12:03 GMT -5
"You've given up," Drew told her, frowning deeper. "If you let them win, then you're never going to get better. You're never going to get rid of them, never going to sleep, never going to be free. They win."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 17, 2005 7:12:59 GMT -5
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Lily turned entirely away from him. "I'm done talking to you," she said quietly, trying her best to hide the hurt in her voice. She knew Drew was right but she was too stubborn and too scared to admit it. Why did life have to be so complicated? Why did everything have to end up rotten? She just knew it was all her fault.
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Drew Thornton
Ministry of Magic
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 17, 2005 13:17:27 GMT -5
"And what if I'm not done talking to you?" Drew shot back, getting angry at her. You girls are all the same! Coming to me for help and then not even bothering to listen. I just hope you remember that I'm not the one leaving here. How the heck am I supposed to help though if you keep leaving me?"
With that, he grabbed his blanket and moved to the opposite side of the room.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 17, 2005 18:58:28 GMT -5
Lily didn't say anything, she just closed her eyes and hoped she would fall asleep. She didn't though. She stayed awake for a long time. She was positive Drew was sleeping but as the first signs of morning began to come into the room, though it was still early, she rolled over. If she couldn't say it to his face, she could at least say it while she thought he was asleep. "I'm sorry Drew." She said, not quietly, but in a normal voice. "I'm sorry for seeming so impossible and so stubborn. Well, I seem that way because I am. And you get frustrated at me for that I know it. And I'm trying to do better but it's so hard to. Especially when you and everyone else seems to think that I'm this or that and I feel like I can't live up to what is thought of me. You say I'm stronger than them, but I don't feel stronger. And I guess then when I can't fight them I fight the people I can. I push them all away, leaving myself alone, because I can't take being loved. I can't take people thinking there's more than just a messed up me. Because I don't feel that I can ever live up to what they think of me." There she had said it, and not without a price, because it was hard and the tears left on her face showed it.
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Drew Thornton
Ministry of Magic
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 18, 2005 19:01:10 GMT -5
Drew had gotten very little sleep through the night, dozing slightly from time to time but mostly lying awake and listening to Lily toss and turn as he tried to keep warm under the blankets. Part of him tried to convince himself to just go back to the common room, get into some dry clothes and sleep in his own bed, but the bigger part made him stay so that by the end of the night, he was tired and sniffly.
As the sun peeked through the windows, Lily finally spoke and he listened quietly, not really knowing what to answer, but instead repeating what he had told her a million times.
"They win because you let them," he said softly, sniffing a little. "You'll never beat them until you start to realize that you're stonger than they are."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 18, 2005 19:24:23 GMT -5
Lily was a bit startled when Drew answered her back. She wasn't really expecting him to be awake. She wanted so badly just to feel safe but she knew she never would until she could beat them. "But how do I realize that when I feel so weak?" She asked him quietly. She wiped away the tears left on her face.
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Drew Thornton
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 18, 2005 19:29:59 GMT -5
"At first... it's mostly just pretending," Drew answered, still lying down on his bed. "You pretend you're tough and then you start acting tough. They won't believe it at first, but if you keep it up and stick with it, they'll start to get worried."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 18, 2005 19:52:35 GMT -5
"After you pretend," Lily asked, looking up at the ceiling now. "Does it eventually become reality? Or will it be no matter how much pretending I do, I'll never really be tough. I'm good at pretending. I used to do it all the time. I used to seem happy when I really wasn't specially when I was around my mum. So is that what I need to do? Seem strong even though I'm not?"
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Drew Thornton
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 18, 2005 19:56:27 GMT -5
"You pretend long enough and the others start believing it," Drew answered. "It takes a while, but they do. Then, once they start believing it, they get sacred... and that's when it becomes a reality. I don't think anyone is really REALLY tough or brave or anything to start with. You just pretend to be and then it starts to happen for real."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 18, 2005 19:59:02 GMT -5
"It sounds so easy though," Lily said. "Are you sure it will work? How can something so simplistic get rid of something so complex? It seems almost to good to be true." She was finding lines to connect on the ceilling. Those there made a star and then a fish next to them. Maybe she would stare at it all day.
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Drew Thornton
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 18, 2005 20:07:40 GMT -5
"It will work as long as you don't give up on it the first time they laugh back at you," Drew answered. "When they do that, you just have to pretend harder. After a while, it's not so hard to pretend and it feels real. Maybe it even is..."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 18, 2005 20:20:07 GMT -5
"Do you think once they go away things will get better?" Lily asked. "I mean I've been saying for so long if only they would go away then things would be better, that I don't know if it really would. You sure it's not just a myth? It still sounds too good to be true?" She was voicing a bit more of her fear now.
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Drew Thornton
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 18, 2005 20:52:25 GMT -5
"Yeah, I think so," Drew answered. "I mean, how can it not be better? You'll be stronger and a lot more confident... getting plenty of sleep to boot.... all of that sounds like good stuff to me."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 18, 2005 21:06:26 GMT -5
"It sounds like good stuff to me too," Lily said with a smile. She coughed. "I feel a lot better. Not on par, but getting there. Thanks for taking care of me last night, even though I was probably stubborn as all heck. This was better than my plan, even if the floor was cold." She cracked a small grin.
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Drew Thornton
Ministry of Magic
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 18, 2005 21:30:16 GMT -5
"No problem," Drew answered with another sniff, followed by a swipe of his still damp sweatshirt sleeve across his nose. "Just make sure you get some rest so it doesn't happen again."
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