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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 16, 2006 23:40:01 GMT -5
"Well first off," Lily said quietly. "We were at the yule ball and he just left me and went after Ari. I forgave him and everything, but still, it bugged me. And then one day we were in the forest and then we were talking and then we started kissing and things started to go to far and I said stop, only he wouldn't, not right away. He wouldn't stop until I was crying and scared half out of my mind." She was silent for a bit, looking at the blob which was still in the water. "Then we had this huge fight and he told me I was incapable of love and nothing but a prissy white girl."
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 16, 2006 23:53:36 GMT -5
"What!?" she said loudly, stabbing at the earth with the into the hole with the twig. Nevermind that he went after Ari, he had disrespected her. "Did he stop? Lily, tell me he stopped before..."
She shook her head, unable to say what the sentence obviouly lead to. Whoever this guy was, he had no respect for girls and he obviously had issues with love. She looked at Lily and searched for an answer. "Lily..."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 17, 2006 6:27:41 GMT -5
"He did eventually," Lily said quietly. "Which is why we fought because I wasn't willing to go all the way." She looked down at the ground. "He made me feel like a bad person and a bad girlfriend for not going that far." She shoved some twigs around on the ground, fidgeting kinda nervously. She had a feeling there would be an akward silence.
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 17, 2006 16:00:21 GMT -5
Silent it was. Every time Layla was about to say something, she stopped herself. Nothing she could say would make anything go away. She just sat there with Lily, hoping it was enough. It was all she really had to give. "He doesn't deserve you. He doesn't know what he's talking about." She had no idea who this boy is, but she figured he couldn't be anything great.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 17, 2006 18:18:23 GMT -5
Lily was just quiet. She sat there, not saying anything, not doing anything. There was nothing she could say. There was nothing she could do either. She just sat there quietly thinking. There was either something screwed up with her, or with her boyfriends. The latter would be the better one to think on, but Lily couldn't bring herself to.
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 18, 2006 21:26:44 GMT -5
Lily's silence only made Layla more concious of her own. She had no idea what to do or say. She just wish there were a way for Lily to trust her. She could say it all she wanted, but Lily had had poor experiences with trust as far she she could tell. She took the twig she'd left sticking out of the ground and started picking at the sides of the hole she'd made. "So now what?" she asked, her eyes on her task. "What are you going to do after all of that?"
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 19, 2006 6:47:55 GMT -5
"I don't know," Lily said. "As usual. I never know what to do or think or say or act. And then when I do do or think or say or act, it's never the right thing. And I always just make things worse. I swear I'm cursed. Cursed almost into oblivion. Maybe it would be better that way though. If I could just not exsist. Some spell gone wrong or something and then I exsist on another dimension."
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 19, 2006 19:24:04 GMT -5
Layla sat there, taking it all in. She had nothing to offer. "You know what," she said after coming to a temporary conclusion, "forget about it." She knew it sounded ridiculous and impossible, but she had to trying. "Even if it's for half an hour, just forget about it all. Spill it out in your journal," she instructed, motioning to the book in front of Lily, "and just relax. Whether you believe it or not, things will get better and your true friends will always be your friends." At this point, Layla had no idea what she was talking about and probably sounded like an overexposed motivational speaker. But it upset her seeing Lily so upset.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 19, 2006 21:06:36 GMT -5
Lily shrugged. "The probelm is I don't know who my true friends are anymore," she said. But dilligently, she turned to the page and began writing. Her thoughts had shifted a bit. Layla's back. This makes me smile. I never got the oppurtunity to know her better before she left. Now that I do. I think, I think she'll make a good friend, even if I won't. I hope I don't ruin it again.
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 19, 2006 21:21:22 GMT -5
Layla thought about what Lily said about her friends, but was happy to see that Lily went to her journal. "You have time to find out which ones they are," she told her, taking the opportunity to lie on her back, appreciating the outdoors and giving Lily some privacy.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 19, 2006 21:29:59 GMT -5
((It is not a diary))
"But how do you know that?" Lily asked, looking up. "Can you know that ever really? How far does a friend have to go to be considered a true friend?" She looked down again and jotted. What is a true friend? What is a true friendship?
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 19, 2006 22:20:27 GMT -5
((You know... I actually knew that. But my fingers have typing diarrhea and insist in calling it a diary. : p No worries... 'tis edited.))
Layla opened her mouth to respond but cut herself short. "I have no idea," she admitted. Who would ever know? "But can't just shut everyone out." Layla frowned at her own words as her mind automatically applied it to herself. She shook the thoughts out of her head and squinted at the sun over the grounds. It wasn't the same.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 19, 2006 23:08:42 GMT -5
((It's not a journal either . .. it's her writing notebook )) "Oh yes you can," Lily said. "Trust me, I've done it enough to know you can." She went back to her notebook and wrote some more. Shutting out everyone is easy. It's dealing with the pain of being alone that's hard. She stared at it. That could be turned into a good poem, or a good short story for that matter.
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Post by Layla Jimenez on May 20, 2006 11:37:37 GMT -5
(gah... well Layla is under the impression that it's something of that sort. )) "But... don't you get lonely? I mean... I don't think there's ever been a time when there was no one around," she replied. She wrinkled her brow, searching her memory. She realized that she had felt left without some of her favorite and most important company recently. She remained silent as she fought the thoughts, and continued looking up at the sky, trying to fight the pressure in her chest and hold on to the tear that was threatening to escape.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on May 20, 2006 18:36:59 GMT -5
Lily shrugged. "Of course I get lonely," she said quietly. "But when there's a constant pain such as that you can't really feel anymore. You go numb inside, because being numb doesn't hurt as much as caring so much." She set her pencil down on the page.
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