Connor Manning
Head Boy
Slytherin Seventh Year Quidditch Captain
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Post by Connor Manning on Aug 22, 2007 12:26:40 GMT -5
Connor laughed at Jeremy's answer of ' I, am, not, really, sure '. " Nice. " He told the Hufflepuff with a grin. He turned his head slightly to look at him, the grin still playing on his lips.
Connor nodded, brushing his feet lightly against the floor as he listened to the boy's explaination. " So, you're different, quiet, friendly, ougoing, and trustworthy. All good things. " He said with a chuckle as he noticed Jeremy's eye roll about what he had said about being able to keep a secret. " Hm.. " He hummed to himself softly as Jeremy turned the question back to him. " Well, " He marked off the number of words on his fingers just as Jeremy had done moments before, " I would consider myself to be a shy, fun, curious, " His eyes flickered up to meet Jeremy's and then back down to his hand, where he was still counting off, " reserved vegetarian. Cool, eh? " He questioned jokingly with a grin as he was done describing himself. He felt himself growing a little embarassed, he had been thinking about adding another word to it all, but decided not to. Jeremy might be a great secret keeper, but Connor wasn't sure if he wanted to tell him his secret, just yet.
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Post by Jeremy Grey on Aug 22, 2007 12:57:01 GMT -5
"...curious..."
Jeremy looked over at the boy with a look of confusion until their eyes met for a second. Had that been a look? A real look? No, definitely not. Jeremy was jumping to conclusions again, so desperate to find someone like him that everyone seemed to be giving him a "look" or "the nod" these days. Blushing again, Jeremy looked away as Connor continued his description of himself. He grinned when he said he was a vegetarian, finding that cool even before he asked jokingly whether or not he did. "That is cool, actually," the Huffle told the boy with a grin. He noticed that Connor's expression had dropped slightly after that and Jeremy gave him a curious look.
"Hey, what's up?" he asked him in a concerned tone, tilting his head to the side and looking at him.
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Connor Manning
Head Boy
Slytherin Seventh Year Quidditch Captain
something in the way
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Post by Connor Manning on Aug 22, 2007 13:14:03 GMT -5
Connor smiled in responce to Jeremy's reaction to telling him he was a vegetarian. " Yeah, it is pretty cool... My sister got me into it a whie back. " He told him, remembering how his sister had actually convinced their entire family to go veg. Their parents decided it wasn't for them at a later time, but he and Bella both decided to stick with it.
Connor instinctively licked his lips out of nervousness as he looked back up to Jeremy. He felt like his pulse was going a mile a minute, and the way that Jeremy tilted his head just so while looking at him, the concern in his voice, it was almost too much for Connor to take. Feeling like his voice got caught up in his throat, he shook his head until he regained the ability to speak again. " Uhm, nothin', really. Just thinking about... stuff. " He left it at stuff, peering at the boy sitting next to him. He was sure there was a connection, almost positive, but you can never really know until you find out for yourself. " I'm... bisexual. " He said, and in that second he felt vulnerable and exposed to the Hufflepuff. He had never told that to anyone before, so he wasn't sure what to expect from Jeremy. At the same time as feeling worried, he also felt relieved to have finally told someone. He looked down to the ground, feeling his cheeks grow hot again. What's he going to think of me? Thoughts like these raced through Connor's mind as he looked back up to Jeremy. Out of nervousness he tugged lightly on his lip ring again with his teeth, unsure of what to do with himself.
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Post by Jeremy Grey on Aug 22, 2007 17:08:47 GMT -5
A huge sigh of what could have sounded like relief came out of Jeremy. His breathing got a little heavier and he even started to laugh. "I'm sorry, I don't mean to laugh," he apologized quickly, meaning it sincerely, "It's just...wow." He looked at the boy who had now looked down at the ground. He was chewing on his lip again and Jeremy felt bad for him. He knew what a big deal it was to come out to someone like that, having already been through it himself. But Jeremy hadn't told anyone at Hogwarts yet. He hadn't planned on doing so but now that Connor had just told him, Jeremy knew it was OK to come out as well.
Reaching over, the Hufflepuff boy touched Connor's chin lightly, lifting his head up again so their eyes could meet. He wasn't sure if the move was too forward, but he wanted the Slytherin to be looking at him when he said it. "Connor, it's fine," he told the boy with a warm smile, his cheeks flaring up again as he knew it was coming, "It's fine with me because...I'm gay."
Wow, he'd said it. It was terrifying to admit, but also it felt good to actually tell someone. It was so out of character for Jeremy to tell someone he barely knew, but he felt like there was a connection between them. And he knew Connor would be OK with it.
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Connor Manning
Head Boy
Slytherin Seventh Year Quidditch Captain
something in the way
Posts: 737
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Post by Connor Manning on Aug 22, 2007 20:20:55 GMT -5
Connor looked up at the Huffle as he heard him let out a laugh. A confused look was on his face until Jeremy apologized. He waved his hand, dissmissing the topic slightly. But he couldn't help it as a half smile fell upon his lips once he heard Jeremy say. ' It's just... wow. ' He hung his head slightly, still wondering what Jeremy could be thinking about it.. not that he cared. He rolled his eyes at himself because he knew that was a total lie. He barely knew the boy, but he somehow cared already. It was abnormal for Connor, something else he would just have to get used to.
Connor could see Jeremy's hand reaching over to him out of the corner of his eye, he felt his touch lightly on his chin and looked up to meet his eyes. Connor, it's fine. He nodded in responce to this, a slight smile on his face now. "It's fine with me because...I'm gay."
And now it was Connor's turn to laugh, a wave of relief seemed to rush over him. " Ahh.. " He said, covering his face with his hands for a moment before removing them and looking back at Jeremy. Of course he's not going to judge me... He knows how I feel. Connor thought. He still couldn't believe that he had told someone here. And so soon after meeting Jeremy, too. He was suprised with himself.
" Wow, Jeremy.. " He said, then went on, " Thats... wow. " He met the Huffle's gaze again and grinned.
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Post by Jeremy Grey on Aug 22, 2007 20:59:04 GMT -5
"I haven't told anyone else here yet and I'm not sure if I'm ready for everyone to know," Jeremy told the boy, pulling his hand back finally. It was his turn to look at the ground now, and Jeremy kicked his legs back and forth as they dangled over the desk, nearly touching the ground. The soft noise of his feet scuffing the floor was the only sound for a moment until Jeremy sighed and looked at Connor again. He could feel his eyes starting to burn, they way they did when he started to cry. They watered and Jeremy sniffled slightly, fighting it back as much as he could.
"I just, I ca--" he voice cracked and he spoke in a whisper instead, "I can't tell anyone yet."
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Connor Manning
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Slytherin Seventh Year Quidditch Captain
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Post by Connor Manning on Aug 22, 2007 21:09:07 GMT -5
Connor nodded slightly as he listened to Jeremy. He too looked down to the ground as Jeremy's gaze was directed there as well. " I understand.. " He trailed off and then added, " You're thr first person I've told ever, so feel special. " He said with a slight grin, he was trying to cheer up the boy because he had taken on a more serious tone of voice and looked as if he might cry. Connor felt the urge to comfort Jeremy, to make him feel better any way he could, and even though he knew it was unlikey that he could make it all better, he wanted to do something.
His hand reached out tentatively and touched the back of the Huffle's hand lightly. A small move, but it meant alot coming from Connor. " It's okay. I won't tell anyone either. " He smiled at the boy, wanting him to smile too even though he could understand why he was less than chipper at that moment.
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Post by Jeremy Grey on Aug 22, 2007 21:20:14 GMT -5
Jeremy nodded as if to say 'thank you' to Connor for agreeing to not tell anyone. He feared speaking now, for he knew he'd be unable to control his emotions if he attempted speech. He just looked at the boy, half-laughing as he was told to feel special. The Hufflepuff looked down at his hand as Connor touched it and he felt his cheeks flush up again, even more so (if that was possible) than before. Finally, in a small voice, Jeremy spoke.
"Thank you," he whispered softly, looking up at Connor, "It really means a lot."
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Connor Manning
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Slytherin Seventh Year Quidditch Captain
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Post by Connor Manning on Aug 22, 2007 21:31:36 GMT -5
" Hm.. " Connor hummed softly, if not to comfort himself, then to comfort Jeremy. He also felt a blush creep up on him, his cheeks turning a light pink once more as he noticed Jeremy's blush deepen at his touch. " Sorry.. " He mumbled to him, wondering if he shouldn't have done that as he withdrew his hand slightly from the Hufflepuff's, his own blush deepening slightly as he did so. Connor nodded upon hearing Jeremy's soft whisper and meeting his gaze once again. " It's fine, don't worry about it. " A light smile played at the Slytherin's lips as he looked at Jeremy.
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Post by Jeremy Grey on Aug 25, 2007 23:27:53 GMT -5
Jeremy looked down quickly when he felt Connor's hand leave, wishing he hadn't moved it. The Huffle chewed nervously on his lip, wondering if it was safe to ask him to put it back. He decided against it, but instead, reached out and found Connor's hand again, taking it without saying anything. Their eyes just locked for a moment until a smile started to creepy back onto Jeremy's lips. He finally let go on Connor's hand, putting it back on the table beside his own.
"It really does mean a lot that you're doing that for me," Jeremy told him, "I really feel like I can trust you already." He smiled at the boy again, glad that he's back-tracked and found Connor here. If he hadn't, Jeremy would have kept his secret forever but it felt good to finally tell someone. Especially someone who could actually relate.
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Connor Manning
Head Boy
Slytherin Seventh Year Quidditch Captain
something in the way
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Post by Connor Manning on Aug 25, 2007 23:38:28 GMT -5
A smile, a light touch, it was more then what Connor had expected as a reaction from Jeremy. Not that he was complaining, quite the contrary really. A smile lit up his face as he felt Jeremy's hand reach for his, their gaze catching one anothers. Does he like me? Is he just being friendly? He wasn't sure what to think of this move, but he squeezed Jeremy's hand supportively before the Hufflepuff set Connor's hand back down on the table beside his. Connor leaned forward sligthly, his hair falling in front of his face as he did so.
He leaned back and turned his head slightly, flicking his hair out of his eyes to look at Jeremy once again. ' It really does mean a lot that you're doing that for me, ' He nodded at the Huffle boy and said, " It's fine.. I get where you're coming from. " He smiled slightly and then said, " I feel like I can trust you, too. It's strange. Usually.. I dunno, it takes me a while to connect with people, you know? " He felt like he was rambling slightly so he stopped talking and looked back over to Jeremy.
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Post by Jeremy Grey on Aug 25, 2007 23:46:50 GMT -5
Jeremy nodded, understandingly. He hadn't really connected with anyone at school, except maybe Es. But then again, she was the only person he really knew and talked to besides Connor now. "Yeah, I do know," the California boy answered, "It takes me a long time to open up to people but...you...I dunno, just felt right." Before Jeremy could think, those words were out of his mouth and he regretted it immediately. He made a bit of a face, looking away from the Slytherin for a second. "I..uhh," he stuttered, "Sorry."
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Connor Manning
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Slytherin Seventh Year Quidditch Captain
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Post by Connor Manning on Aug 25, 2007 23:52:52 GMT -5
Just felt right. Connor smiled shyly as Jeremy said this. He looked out along the classroom, thinking. He moved his hand over slightly so it was right next to his, glancing back up at him. " Don't be sorry, Jeremy... I mean... " He couldn't seem to find what it was he wanted to say, really. His free hand flicked up to his hair, brushing it out of the way slightly before he went on, " It did... Feel right, that is. " He said, not exactly thinking through everything he was saying, just saying them on impulse before he got too shy. He scanned the classroom again, wanting to look away from Jeremy, but also at him at the same time. Looking back to him, though, he smiled slightly.
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Post by Jeremy Grey on Aug 26, 2007 0:06:43 GMT -5
It was only then did the warning bells and alarms start going off in Jeremy's head, telling him to run really fast in the opposite direction of Connor. What was he doing? Was he flirting? Was Jeremy really flirting? It was a bit sad, but it appeared to be happening anyways. Their hands touched again, and Jeremy blushed, the way a child would at such a touch. With a sigh, the Hufflepuff boy turned his head to look at the younger Slytherin.
"What are we doing, Connor?" Jeremy asked him, quietly, feeling kind of weird for asking this, "What is this?"
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Connor Manning
Head Boy
Slytherin Seventh Year Quidditch Captain
something in the way
Posts: 737
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Post by Connor Manning on Aug 26, 2007 0:12:59 GMT -5
" I.. erm. " Connor attempted to shrug, but he had more to say so he stopped. A shrug wouldn't cover it. " I thought you maybe... ? " He looked questioningly at Jeremy. Of course, he's not a mind reader you idiot. Connor was being a bit harsh on himself, but he felt like he had made a bad move and now he had to either explain himself or just go. He blinked away, staring at a spot on one of the desks several feet away. " Maybe I thought you liked me? I dunno. Maybe I think I might... " Connor trailed off, seeming to not be able to finish his own thought. After a few seconds of silence he said, " Like you. Might like you. " At last he looked hesitantly up at Jeremy.
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