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Post by Felicity Hjort on Sept 7, 2008 21:25:10 GMT -5
He knew what she was speaking of, she heard it in his voice when he asked her to clarify. That night when he had his arms around Celina, for a reason she still didn't fully understand when from where Felicity sat, her friend was perfectly fine. All the Deva had gone down the rows of tables, collecting wands, sneering at the students as they hesitated and froze. What was so different about Celina to anyone else? If all were scared, then why was it he grabbed at her friend first?
And even now, it was the jealousy bug that worked its way through her body. Drew meant everything to the blonde, she knew he wouldn't hurt her like that, but she feared the influence of others because even if he wouldn't do something, what was to say they wouldn't? There was still some loo room talk about him, and she didn't like it.
Nodding into him once more, she didn't say a word, not for a long moment. She hated feeling the way she had that night, but she still didn't like when his arms were around anyone but her, even if it was meaningless, it hurt slightly to see it happening. And that image in her head, it didn't help things. She had turned her eyes to him, and what she saw was his arms around her best friend. It didn't mean anything, she knew, but she still didn't like it, but she was trying.
"That night, when I said accused you of something awful. I apologized for it, to her..." she trailed off. "And I know it's late, but...I'm sorry. I know you didn't mean anything, but I just...I don't..."
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Post by Drew Thornton on Sept 7, 2008 22:02:57 GMT -5
So they were going to discuss it. When it happened, they had only been dating officially a few weeks and he had still been working through his own bout of jealousy. He still hadn't fully forgiven Lucas for taking Felicity to that Yule Festival and giving her a locket, but he was trying to be nice.
But through it all, he had never been upset with her for what Lucas had done. She had told him that the locket was just a locket to her and while Drew didn't belive it was just a locket to Lucas, he had belived Felicity. And when it had been destroyed, he had truly been sorry for her loss.
He hadn't liked the accusation, but he supposed he understood it a little. A month into their relationship, she hadn't trusted him with a lot of things so it really wasn't a surprise she hadn't trusted him on this either. It hurt, but he thought he understood.
He held her a little closer and leaned his head on hers, not needing the apology, but glad she gave it to him. "You don't what?" he asked.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Sept 7, 2008 23:22:29 GMT -5
The feeling of hate filled her, consumed her as he held her close when she knew what she was thinking. Seeing his arms around anyone made her jealous, she was better about it now than ever before, but she still didn't like it any. It bothered her to see it because she knew of some people's intentions, though his were pure as anything, that wasn't how it was for others, not according to the loo talk. At the same time, she couldn't pull or push away, melting under his touch. It was one of the most amazing feelings in the world.
Sniffling quietly, Felicity shook her head, not wanting to say it, knowing he all ready knew what she didn't, not wanting to tell him again how much she didn't when he did it.
"I don't--I don't like it," she spoke, just above a whisper. "Even though I know it means nothing, I don't like it, it makes me feel really bad inside." The words came rushed afterward, wanting him to understand she trusted him more than anything, but that it didn't change how she felt inside, when that monster flared.
"I know you love me, only me, but that doesn't mean other girls don't like you, and it doesn't stop me from not feeling nice when you hold someone else that isn't me."
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Post by Drew Thornton on Sept 8, 2008 0:00:56 GMT -5
As long as she stayed in his arms, he knew things would be okay. He didn't like what she was saying, feeling like she still didn't fully trust him, thinking it sounded like a huge double standard, but he couldn't be mad. He heard her small sniff and loosened his hold just enough to gently wipe her cheeks with one finger.
"Kind of like how I felt about Lucas," he pointed out softly. He knew she loved him and that she'd never do anything to hurt him like that, but that didn't keep other guys from trying stuff. He didn't like it, but he wasn't about to tell her she couldn't talk to other guys.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Sept 8, 2008 23:00:25 GMT -5
There was no way Drew felt that way about Lucas, Lucas didn't have any intentions like some girls from the bathrooms had. The girls in the bathrooms talked a lot about things that she didn't like, she heard about a lot of boys she knew, but the ones that bothered her the most were about Drew and her friends. He didn't know what they said, and she knew he wasn't using those ear things to listen, and if he was he was going to be in trouble.
"I doubt it," she mumbled into his neck, shaking her head against him. "You don't know what those girls say about you, you don't hear them talk about things they shouldn't talk about." There was just no way he knew how she really felt, how it made her almost angry to see anyone in his arms. Why couldn't girls just leave him alone? Most seemed to know they were dating, though definitely not the extent of anything, like how much she loved him and would do anything for him, or about the ring she wore that he'd given her, or how he made her feel, but they knew they were dating, so why did they keep going? "Lucas wouldn't say something like that."
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Post by Drew Thornton on Sept 8, 2008 23:51:28 GMT -5
No, Lucas wouldn't ever do anything like mention Felicity in locker room talk. Even if Drew wasn't around to pound anyone who said that kind of stuff about her, Lucas was enough of a gentleman not to. It might not extend so far as to keep from hitting on another guy's girl, but no, Lucas would definitely not trash talk a girl.
But being a gentleman didn't always keep a guy from thinking about some of those things. Drew had tried to explain to Felicity what a locket meant, but she hadn't believed him. Even now, she didn't seem to believe that his feelings about that locket were probably pretty close to hers about those other girls.
He was hating this conversation more and more. It only reminded him how much she hadn't trusted him then and got him wondering if she still couldn't now. She didn't trust him about Lucas, she didn't trust him with other girls... would she really trust him to come back for her if he was in that whole portkey situation again?
"They talk a lot about my butt and my feet," Drew mumbled back. His sister had heard it too and had mentioned it in an effort to warn him. "Do you think I'd want to hang out with girls like that?" he asked, trying hard to not get upset. He knew there was a good chance she'd belive he would and just the possibility worried him.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Sept 9, 2008 0:17:59 GMT -5
"No."
An answer choked out, but it wasn't the end either. Felicity knew Drew wouldn't want to spend time with girls like that, but how could he tell if they were like that? Half the time Felicity would never guess them to be like that, because they kept it to the loos. And it wasn't just to that extent, yes, she heard a lot more about that than she wanted to hear from others, but that wasn't the end of it. They talked more about a lot of things that didn't include that, stuff she didn't want to think about because she really felt no reason to.
"But that doesn't keep them from wanting to spend time with you. And they talk about more than that, they talk about things they really shouldn't talk about, they say things they shouldn't even be thinking."
Felicity was dating him and she didn't think about a lot of the things the talked about, it made her embarrassed to kiss him sometimes after hearing them. It didn't happen a whole lot, but it happened often enough, and she just didn't like it. Upset as she was, she didn't even catch that he knew what girls talked about, but had she, she likely would've remembered they had a conversation about the bathrooms all ready.
"Drew? You don't--you don't really feel like that, do you? Like the worst person in the world because something is happening when you know there's nothing going on, but you can't help but be upset and angry, and..and jealous?"
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Post by Drew Thornton on Sept 9, 2008 0:34:07 GMT -5
He felt his face flush as she continued about what the girls talked about. Allegra hadn't named names when she told him, but even now, when he passed a group of giggling girls coming out of the loo, he couldn't help but feel embarassed. At least he knew he wasn't the only one they discussed in there and while some guys liked it, Drew really wished they'd leave him out.
"I did... about Lucas," Drew told her carefully, certain she still wouldn't believe him. The very thought of the other boy spending time with Felicity had torn away at Drew's insides and there was nothing he could do about it. She would have hated him if he told her not to go near Lucas.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Sept 9, 2008 13:00:43 GMT -5
How could he feel that way about Lucas though? He hadn't ever said anything like what those girls had. Felicity knew she could trust Lucas not to be like that, there was no way he'd do something like that to her, he wasn't like that. Lucas was sweet and kind and so shy he couldn't even begin to think of doing something like that, she knew he couldn't. The blonde didn't understand how he could feel as horrible as she did. Felicity knew what those girls thought, what they talked about, she knew what they were like from the loo talks.
Lucas wasn't like that.
"Why?" If he wasn't like that, how could Drew feel that way? Felicity didn't mind him spending time with other girls, talking to them, she just couldn't stand when his arms were around anyone else.
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Post by Drew Thornton on Sept 9, 2008 22:45:25 GMT -5
Drew really wasn't sure he wanted to get into it. He had already tried to explain it to Felicity and she hadn't believed him. The frustrating part is it still sounded like she didn't. She had asked if he ever felt like that and he answered honestly. There were times that just the sight of the other boy had made Drew want to punch the guy's face in. At the same time, Drew knew he knew he was being stupid because nothing was going to happen. Felicity loved him and Lucas giving her a million lockets wouldn't change that.
So maybe it was different. Just the thought of that depressed him even more. He really couldn't see her being okay with any other girl giving him a million hugs.
Even if it was different, he was going to try to explain it again, unable to let her small question go unanswered. She had explained and reexplained the whole talking to Celina first and he had finally gotten it, so maybe she'd understand this? No, it probably wasn't the same, but maybe she'd get how much it had bothered him.
"He wouldn't say stuff like that," Drew started, speaking into her hair. If he could focus on the smell of her shampoo, maybe he wouldn't get as upset. "But when he gave you that locket, I didn't like it. I wanted to be the one to give you a locket and part of me felt stupid for not getting you one, but I knew the other part would have felt just as stupid if I had given you one after he did. When you give a locket to a girl, that's special... really special. It means you really really like her and I didn't like Lucas liking you in that way. He's a nice guy and would treat you like a princess, but I wanted... and I still want... to be the one who does that."
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Sept 9, 2008 23:26:09 GMT -5
Letting her arms loosen from around his middle, they wound around his neck, moving her body to position herself to bury her face easier into the softness of his neck. Her mind couldn't wrap around how a locket was so special, and then, even if it was, again, why hadn't he gotten her one? He thought about it, contemplated it, yet hadn't. He told her because it wasn't the right time, but if he thought she was that special back then, wasn't she special enough to get a locket from him for Christmas? However, she didn't mind, all ready having fallen in love with the gift he gave her then, the globe she had sitting on her nightstand.
"If it's so special, like you keep saying it is, and it means you like a girl so much, why didn't you get me one?" She couldn't help it, it just blurted out. "I know you said it wasn't the right time, and I'm not upset you never gave me one because I love what you have given me," she whispered against him, gazing at the ring he had placed on her finger a few months prior. "But why would he give me one, and not you...?"
Her question hung on the air, and she wasn't trying to make any troubles, especially when this wasn't what they were there to talk about, but she didn't understand. It was something so simple, beautiful, yes, but with Sammy's picture locked away inside, she couldn't get her mind around it. The necklace Drew gave her put a smile on her face every time she touched it, which was often, and the ring intensified every feeling the necklace gave her. It intensified all of her feelings for him, but nowhere near the way being in his arms did.
"And I don't want to be a princess, Drew. I want to be your girl, just your girl. I don't need anyone to give me anything but their heart, and you did, you told me it was mine for as long as I want it, and that's all I want, it's all I'll ever want. I don't want...I just want...I want to be yours."
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Post by Drew Thornton on Sept 10, 2008 0:10:13 GMT -5
He panicked slightly when she let go of him, certain she was about to back out of his arms and move away from him. The last thing he wanted to do was make her mad. But when she only repositioned her hold on him, he relaxed again and gave a long sigh.
"I know," he answered softly. He knew Lucas was a good guy which only made it harder to hate him so badly. But Lucas being a good guy or not really hadn't been the problem. The problem had been that stupid locket. "I just... don't want some other guy trying."
"I don't know why I didn't..." he told her sullenly. He hated that he hadn't, but at the same time was so glad he had gone another direction. It had been bad enough following Lucas in taking her to the Festival and presenting her with a second locket would have about killed him. Even so, while he had been so excited about his present, it seemed so silly compared to Lucas's. "I thought about it. I seriously considered it. I guess I thought I had time. We had talked so much about going slow and I wasn't sure if that was too fast. And then I saw the globe and I knew that's what I wanted to give you more than anything. I was going to save the locket and give you one another time."
"I was just so mad he had done it all first. Everything I wanted to do, he did it first and it made me feel like I was second," he told her. "So I was mad. But I'm not second. I'm not a huge Lucas fan, but I'm not mad at him anymore."
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Sept 10, 2008 23:27:47 GMT -5
Any other guy trying? No one had ever tried anything...well, that was a lie, but she'd taken care of every time someone had. The first boy that tried kissing her got a swollen lip and a bloody nose, she told Lucas she liked Drew too much to be his, and the "offers" she'd had she either ignored or told the person off for it, not liking them in the least. But in her mind, Lucas hadn't tried after she told him she liked Drew and couldn't like him like that, not then, not now. Honestly, Felicity couldn't even remember if she'd ever told Drew that Lucas had asked her to be his girlfriend only a couple of hours before Drew had kissed her. Was that something she should tell him? Maybe it was the right time.
"On Halloween, the night we first...you kissed me, Lucas...he, he asked me to be his..." she told him softly, whispering her breath by his ear. In a way she thought she had told him, but she couldn't be sure, and wanted him to know. "I told him I couldn't, I couldn't because I liked you and not him, not nearly as much as I liked you. I think it hurt him because he didn't talk to me until just before that winter break, when he asked me to go to the Yule Festival with him so we could make up and be friends again. That's why he gave me the necklace, with Sammy's picture."
Moving closer to him, Felicity ran her fingers through the curls that had formed all year, loving the feel under her touch. "I like going slow with you..." she told him, moving enough to let her lips press against his. Going slow was what they had wanted, it was what she still wanted, but looking over it, in the last year and a half, they'd gone pretty fast, and she knew her dad knew that as well. They kissed, snogged, started dating, he gave her a necklace, he went camping with her family, they'd napped together, kissed differently, and he'd put a ring on her finger. That was going pretty fast, but she didn't care, not when he made her feel the way he did. "And you did the right thing if that's how you felt, if it didn't seem right for so many reasons, then it was what was right to do. And I love what you gave me, now I can have snow at any time."
That's what he'd told her, snow at any time with that little globe.
"You were never second, and never will be. You have every first that's important," she told him, wanting him to believe that. A stupid festival was nothing like having her first night under the stars with him. A stupid necklace was nothing like being the first to have her heart.
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Post by Drew Thornton on Sept 11, 2008 0:10:27 GMT -5
He really didn't need to hear that. Even the tickle of her breath in his ear didn't soften the sting he felt. Again, it seemed as if Lucas had beaten him to the punch. And again, Drew had considered asking her that very question... but had decided that it was too soon.
He really just wanted to be by himself at that moment and stew in his renewed hatred of his housemate, but she moved closer to him and in the end, he was glad she did. Having her close calmed him down and he was able to think a little clearer than jealousy would let him.
He had considered asking her the same question that Halloween and in the end, he hadn't. Instead he had asked, like a dork, if he could kiss her. She had said no to Lucas, but she had said yes to him and Drew supposed that in the end, that was the important thing.
Of course, he still didn't buy the claim that Lucas gave her that locket as "friends" and in light of this new information, he was even more sure.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Sept 11, 2008 1:13:31 GMT -5
When he didn't say anything, Felicity's eyebrows knitted in concern. Usually when he didn't say anything, either he was upset, or thinking, and while she liked to believe it was the latter, she feared it was the former. The silence could be worse than them not talking at all, and she hoped he was talking to her still. They were supposed to tell each other things, right, things like that, the stuff that the other should know. She knew Drew hadn't told her a whole lot about his last girlfriend and stuff they used to do, but she didn't mind, she preferred believing she had him to herself, and no one else had had him. Though, she knew he had a girlfriend before, she just liked the thought that he was all hers.
It made her feel worse inside when he was quiet and she didn't know what he was thinking than seeing another girl in his arms, but at least she didn't feel jealous when this happened. He was hers, that was what mattered, and she was his, she hoped that's what mattered to him.
Moving again, Felicity placed one knee on the other side of his legs, placing a hand on his cheek and gently guiding him closer to her, hoping he'd let her kiss him. Just barely touching the corner of his lips, Felicity waited for his reaction before she went any further. If he was upset, he'd let her know, he always did, but she didn't want him to be upset about Lucas, not when she had all ready explained to the boy that she only wanted to be with Drew. And she was, she was his.
"Drew, I love you, not anyone else, only you, and I don't want anyone else, I only want to be yours, be with you. You know that, right?"
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