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Post by Felicity Hjort on May 5, 2009 21:50:43 GMT -5
"Then I decide what to do. If I can take the NEWT exams and attend university, I have options, don't I?" she asked. "If I have both behind me, I can do whatever I'd like really. I could write, maybe get back in contact with the facility in Kenya and see if they'd allow me to work there for a bit, or work in an office. There'd just be more options for me, muggle and wizarding. And you can still do what makes you happy, and when we finish the plan, we'd make a new one, just like we all ready planned."
They only had one plan, but it was to end in three years time, and when that happened they had the plan to make a new plan. The plan could be altered to fit them with what they chose to do; it didn't have to be glued to one way and one way only. Things changed, they had to have room for the wiggling.
"With mum not feeling so well, I mean, wouldn't it be better for me to be home?" And being close to friendless, the few arguments she'd found herself in, the trickery; it was all unnecessary. The only thing she really needed was for Drew to tell her what he thought, and even then it wasn't his decision, though she thought he had a say in it.
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Post by Drew Thornton on May 5, 2009 22:11:14 GMT -5
"Yeah..." he answered slowly, thinking she made some good arguments. There were plenty of Wizards out there that got a double dose of education. Heck, even his Aunt had done it, and yes it opened up a number of options. And then with her mom sick, it really did make a lot of sense.
"You're mom won't be happy... but your dad will," he continued, biting his lip a little as he thought it all over. Was this really the best option, or was he just thinking about how they could be together sooner? "Is that ... really what you want to do?"
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Post by Felicity Hjort on May 6, 2009 0:09:13 GMT -5
Felicity didn't say anything for a long moment, thinking over what he asked. Was it what she really wanted? Could she easily give up her education, the few friends she did have at Hogwarts, all in her last year and return to the lessons her dad would prefer? She might be awfully behind in things and it wouldn't look good on her if she supposedly accepted a scholarship for a school elsewhere and returned unable to keep up with the class. She would be in her last semester though, and she could struggle through it, she would just have to shift aside magic lessons until the end of the term. After that, she could go to the local uni and start a fresh term.
"I don't know what I want to do, Drew."
The honesty in her own voice brought tears to her eyes. Felicity really had no idea. Her mum would love to have her at home, but would hate that she left. Her dad would love she left and that she came home. Celina, well, she could continue to try owling her for a reply. Connor would understand, he was very understanding. Besides those two, there really were no attachments keeping her at the school. Davenport, but she could keep in contact with the professor. "I really have no idea."
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Post by Drew Thornton on May 6, 2009 0:43:21 GMT -5
He didn't know what to do either and really had no idea how to fix this problem. "I want you to come back to London," he said carefully, "And it sounds like a good plan. I could even take a couple of years and go to University too. I don't know what I'd do with it, but that's kind of what University is for, right? It all makes sense, but... but I don't know."
"What made you think about all this?" he asked, stalling for time and hopefully getting some sort of clue as to what they should do.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on May 6, 2009 23:38:02 GMT -5
Felicity bit down on her bottom lip while Drew spoke, trying not to think of anything that really made her want to leave. The fight with Henry, the fact her best friend was no longer at Hogwarts, that Drew wasn't there, nor any of the good friends (except Connor) she'd made her first year in attendance. And with her mum being ill and her dad not particularly wanting her so far away still, it just made sense to go back home. Everything she wanted was there, everything she needed, too. Celina lived in London, or at least did, even if Felicity had never had the pleasure of viewing her home before. But there had to be some sort of trace, hadn't there?
Leaning her head against the fence, she sighed heavily. What hadn't made her think about being at Hogwarts. "Everything that had before when we talked about it," she told him, remembering their conversations of whether she should return or not. In the end, he'd always made a point that told her she had to stay at Hogwarts, but with him on the side with greener grass she didn't really think he'd be able to this time. "I'm not very good at lessons, I don't have many friends here anymore," she started. Henry couldn't be her friend, she didn't see how anymore. He'd made a point to trick her for no reason, said things he had no right to, it just couldn't work. And Connor had to deal with the Quidditch team and Head Boy duties, so there wasn't a whole lot of time he had to spend with her, and his other friends. Dante was as missing as Celina and Alfonz, and everyone else was all ready gone.
"I don't feel like I belong here."
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Post by Drew Thornton on May 7, 2009 0:21:34 GMT -5
"Lessons, I can help you with over vacation," he told her, feeling more like a devil's advocate in the matter at that moment. If he really said what he was thinking at that moment, he'd tell her it was okay to stay, but still, he wasn't sure that was really what was best. "And... and you have tons of friends. I mean, I know Celina's gone and that's big, but you can write her... and see her on vacations too."
His arguments were really half hearted though. He missed her and really wouldn't be upset if she left school. She could be with her mom and he could help her with the stuff to pass her NEWTs if that's what she wanted. Still, with all the reasons for her to leave, he couldn't help but feel like it wasn't quite right.
"What... what do you mean like you don't belong?" he asked. "I want you to come back to London. I miss you. But... but I'm worried that maybe... maybe you'd regret not finishing later, you know? We made it through two months like this and it's another couple of months until Christmas Hols. If coming home is what you really want, then I want you to do that, but at the same time, I don't want you regretting leaving later on."
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Post by Felicity Hjort on May 7, 2009 0:46:23 GMT -5
Maybe he could help her during holidays, but there wasn't much promise otherwise. Her vacations from Hogwarts were short and she didn't want to waste the little amount of time she'd have with him doing lessons, exactly what she did in school. Even if there wouldn't be much of anything else to do, other than spend time in her home and maybe go out for dinner once, that precious time she did get couldn't be spent on learning what she'd all ready learned.
"No I can't," she answered sadly. "I've tried writing to her, and she won't write back. I've gotten my own letters returned, not having even been opened." And if what little she'd said about her family was true, it was unlikely Felicity would ever see the quiet Ravenclaw again. The thought hurt, especially when she'd left without a word and wouldn't write her back, but she didn't know what to do. "And I only have Connor left, Drew. Everyone else has left, graduated before me."
"I feel out of place..." Everything about being there that had been exciting before was gone. The moving pictures, the endlessly lit candles, the normal stuff was all there. But the friendly faces, the easy conversations, the fun, the castle was empty of it. And to make matters worse, time was moving more slowly than she could have imagined it would. "There's really nothing to regret, not if I am able to take the NEWT exams. All I need to really do is show proof I've been learning the lessons, or that I returned home due to an ill family member, I'm sure they'd allow me to take the exams. I've completed almost all the required years of learning, and it's my last year. Mum is ill, and I know you and mum would continue my lessons."
Looking over at him, she knew she wanted to leave. "I don't play Quidditch anymore, I'm not in a position of leadership, I wouldn't be sorely missed. Nothing happens this year to make me really want to stay. It's the same as any other year, but it's without everyone I care about."
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Post by Drew Thornton on May 7, 2009 20:13:37 GMT -5
She was right. Taking her NEWTs wouldn't be a huge problem, especially if he and her mom helped her with the lessons. She could go home and be closer to her mom... and closer to him. The more he thought about it, there really wasn't much reason to stay, but he still couldn't help but feel like it wasn't right. Maybe it was just the years of indoctrination that he had to finish school, but then again, if she was going to Muggle school, wasn't she? As long as she took her NEWTs, wasn't that the same thing?
"It sounds like you made up your mind then," he said, noticing that she didn't seem very happy about the decision. That more than anything bothered him about the whole thing.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on May 7, 2009 22:04:20 GMT -5
Lifting her gaze, Felicity straightened her back at Drew's tone. He was fighting her, wasn't trying to convince her that staying would be for the best, wasn't doing anything but letting her have her way. True, he hardly fought her decisions and choices, but he had when it came to her education, even to the point of wanting her to attend university after Hogwarts. That wasn't what she wanted, she wanted to go to Kenya, work there with the creatures she would likely never be able to in her life if she did indeed leave Hogwarts. But, would they possibly be understanding if she left? With her mum being ill, as long as she did take the N.E.W.T. exams, why should they keep her from working with them? Maybe if she left she could get a job working in Diagon at one of the creature shops, that would keep her working with them, which would mean she'd be learning more about them. Maybe Davenport, though she knew the woman would look down on her leaving school, give her a letter of recommendation for working at a creature shop.
There were so many possibilities it was making her dizzy as her head tried to wrap around all of them.
"I can't leave right now though," she told him seriously, quietly. "I need to pack and tell mum first. But Christmas. I won't come back after Christmas." Her mind was made up about that.
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Post by Drew Thornton on May 8, 2009 0:20:42 GMT -5
"All right," he answered and while part of him was disappointed that she wouldn't be leaving with him right then and there, another part was glad she'd be sticking it out another few weeks. The idea still wasn't sitting right with him, and while he wasn't sure why, he thought sleeping on it might make the whole thing clearer.
She'd only be missing her last semester, no big deal, he told himself. She'd be telling her mom first and maybe that would help matters.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on May 19, 2009 23:36:41 GMT -5
"All right," her words repeated his in a faint whisper. This was nerve wracking, the thought that she wouldn't be returning. But there were few people left for her at Hogwarts anymore, all had graduated or disappeared in one fashion or another. Connor was still there, somewhere in the crowd when she was able to see him, but with his duties of Head Boy and Quidditch Captain, she knew he had less time than usual for her, and definitely not enough to spend what little time he did have all with her.
But what about the recent spats? With Delilah and Henry? Henry had hurt far more than with Delilah as she'd never known the girl prior and Connor had been there to lick the wounds with her, but with Henry she had been isolated. There was no one to help her, no one to make it better, and worse was she'd lost a potential friend. Though, with his tricking her she wasn't entirely too sure how much of a friend he really would've turned out to be anyway.
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Post by Drew Thornton on May 21, 2009 0:06:51 GMT -5
The reasons all made sense, but it still didn't feel right. How could that even be possible though? If it was the logical conclusion, it had to be right by definition, didn't it? Still, her whole demeanor made him uneasy. He looked at her through the bars and as he bit on his lip, he wished he could hold her properly.
"You don't seem very convinced though," he answered back softly. Was it the fact that she had to wait until Christmas, or that she wasn't sure it was really the right thing to do?
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Post by Felicity Hjort on May 26, 2009 0:04:17 GMT -5
He knew her only too well.
"I just don't know," she shrugged in response. "I don't want to be here, I know that. I don't like it here, at all." So many horrible things had happened, and even with all the good ones that had happened, they no longer out weighed the bad because all the good people were gone, free outside of the bars that kept her prisoner to the castle. Even all her happy memories, the places she loved to be the previous year couldn't create that happy hum they used to. Without something to be bound to, it felt pointless being there.
"I have to wait though, to talk to mum and tell her what I've decided. Dad will want me to enter muggle school again, and I guess I'll have to, it's only a last semester if all goes well. And he'll want me to think about university, which I can think about it, but my plan is to still try for Kenya."
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Post by Drew Thornton on May 26, 2009 23:28:40 GMT -5
"At all seems pretty strong," he said, feeling like there was a heck of a whole lot more going on than just the stuff he knew about. He kind of figured that him not being there anymore had something to do with it, and he knew she hated Raynor. Celina had seemingly left, and while he knew that was a big thing, he just felt like there was a lot more behind at all.
"If... if you go to Muggle school... do they have Prom over here?" he asked, still not convinced her leaving was the best thing, but thinking that it wasn't all that bad if she did. It was only a semester, and with all the work she had already done, Kenya was still a possibility.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on May 26, 2009 23:48:16 GMT -5
"It's how I feel," she told him quietly, not looking at him, instead focusing on a patch of grass. It wasn't entirely true, Connor was still there, and a few other familiar faces, but on the whole she didn't thoroughly enjoy herself anymore. Being in nearly every place depressed her because she could only think about the fun times she'd had before this year, Celina wasn't around to share stories with, and Drew wasn't there to share any time with at all. On the whole, while at all may have been strong, she didn't feel particularly attached to the castle. It held stronger negative memories than most of all her good ones, excepting a select number.
A smile stretched across her lips when he mentioned the dance. "It's a fairly new term here," she informed him, remember Lindsay and her best friends before Hogwarts going on about attending the prom, and needing to ask what it was. "But it's a ball of sorts, for the older classes. Everyone's invited, and they're all allowed to invite guests to attend."
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