Allegra Thornton
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Post by Allegra Thornton on Mar 15, 2006 20:35:31 GMT -5
"that's one of your biggest problems," Allegra answered softly. She felt she needed to be blunt, but didn't want it to sound unkind. "You think one mistake screws up your whole life. Two mistakes... heck even a milion mistakes can't screw up your whole life if you learn from them."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Mar 15, 2006 21:48:57 GMT -5
"It's not just one mistake I've made Allegra," Lily said quietly. "It's a lot of mistakes I've made. Big mistakes too. And I try to learn from them. Or I think I try anyways. I've learned never to kiss a guy with a girlfriend. I know that at least. But it seems like they screw up my life so much."
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Allegra Thornton
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Post by Allegra Thornton on Mar 18, 2006 2:05:05 GMT -5
"I still don't get why it has to be so balck and white," Allegra said shaking her head. "It's all or nothing with you. It was a mistake and you learned from it. How does that screw up your whole life?"
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Mar 18, 2006 18:42:24 GMT -5
"You keep treating it like it's just one mistake that's screwed up my life," Lily said, sitting up and crossing her legs, playing with her fingers. "But it's my whole life that's screwed up my whole life. I've made too many big mistakes to ever fix Allegra." She was quiet, thinking. "I don't believe in myself anymore. I don't believe I can change."
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Allegra Thornton
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Post by Allegra Thornton on Mar 18, 2006 20:35:45 GMT -5
"You just don't listen, do you?" Allegra answered. "It doesn't matter how many mistakes you make or how big you screw up. Anyone can change if they really want to. If you think you can't then you're right... you don't believe in yourself. And there's nothing anyone can do to change that besides yourself."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Mar 19, 2006 11:18:28 GMT -5
"Why should I believe in me though?" Lily asked quietly. "It's not like anyone else does. Drew doesn't think I can change, if he did, he would forgive me. You don't think I can change, you just said so yourself. But if no one ever believes in me, how am I supposed to believe in myself?"
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Allegra Thornton
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Post by Allegra Thornton on Mar 19, 2006 12:46:30 GMT -5
Allegra gave a frustrated huff. "I said nothing of the sort. What I said was that you didn't listen. What I said is you can't change unless you think you can. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Mar 19, 2006 12:51:02 GMT -5
"But if everyone else thinks I can't change," Lily said. "Why should I think I can? I don't know how to change either, there's no one left to tell me how to fix everything." She was quiet for a bit. "My mum would know what to tell me if she was still alive."
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Allegra Thornton
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Post by Allegra Thornton on Mar 19, 2006 12:56:11 GMT -5
"You don't listen!" Allegra said for the third time. "Why does it matter what anyone else thinks? You don't change because YOU don't want to... pure and simple. You ask for help but then you ignore it. You focus so much on the negative that you won't even let a glimmer of anything positive in. You're doing it to yourself. Only you can change it."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Mar 19, 2006 13:10:38 GMT -5
Lily was quiet, just thinking. "Allegra," she said quietly. "I want to change, I really do. It doesn't matter what they think," she was looking at things a little differently now. "I've got to prove them wrong. I've got to prove them I can. I've got to save myself. And I need to stop focusing on the negative."
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Allegra Thornton
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Post by Allegra Thornton on Mar 20, 2006 22:14:59 GMT -5
Allegra knew she was walking a fine line between using Lily's stubbornness to get her self-motivated on one side and totally discouraging her for good on the other.
"If you really think you can do it," she told her with a shrug. "But you say that now when nothing is challenging you. First mistake you make, who's to say you won't just give up?"
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Mar 21, 2006 7:39:45 GMT -5
Lily thought for a moment. "Because I won't," she said quietly. "I'm not alone and all mistakes can be fixed right? If you're determined enough to fix them, you can, can't you?" She was trying to reason this out with herself and she wasn't getting very far, except maybe in circles.
((Maybe she has a physcoscomatic illness too . . .O.o lol))
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Allegra Thornton
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Post by Allegra Thornton on Mar 22, 2006 0:46:17 GMT -5
"Right," Allegra answered carefully, hoping the time for pushing Lily was over and the time for supporting her had started. "And if they can't be fixed, they can still be learned from. And you aren't alone. If you really want to do it, you can. If you really want it, people wil help."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Mar 22, 2006 7:53:44 GMT -5
Lily showed a weak, but small smile. "I can do it," she whispered quietly. "I can do it." She was quiet for a moment. "Thanks Allegra, this means a lot to me. Some days I just feel so alone and so directionless. Is that a word? I'm making it one."
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Allegra Thornton
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Post by Allegra Thornton on Mar 24, 2006 0:21:01 GMT -5
"If not, it's a good one, so I'll back you up on it," Allegra answered back, giving her a smile in return. "The big question is how ready are you to actually do this? Negitivity is a hard habit to break."
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