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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 22, 2005 23:03:10 GMT -5
"It's not like I try to," Lily answered him. "I'm only trying to be a good friend, which I guess is just another thing I do wrong. I don't know anything about being a friend and half the time I wonder if I'm doing the right thing or not. I wonder a lot why we always fight, is that what friends are supposed to be like?" She wasn't even really talking to him anymore, more of just wondering outloud.
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 23, 2005 2:30:42 GMT -5
That stopped Drew and he turned around, puzzled. "We don't always fight," he told her. "We've had, what, two maybe three?" he asked. That was nothing compared to how many he had with Ari.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 23, 2005 7:20:48 GMT -5
"It feels like we're always fighting," Lily said quietly. "And I hate it. I hate that feeling when we fight. It makes me hurt, right in here." She gestured to her heart. "I hate fighting," she continued. "With anyone close to me. It brings back memories."
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 23, 2005 14:01:28 GMT -5
"You know what I hate?" Drew asked softly, staying where he was on the staircase. "I hate when someone I thought was a friend tells me they hate my guts." Hate was hurtful enough, but hating one's guts implied a loathing that Drew just wasn't used to getting from people who claimed to care about him.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 23, 2005 15:40:44 GMT -5
Lily decided to answer him with a question of her own. "Do you know what I hate?" She asked quietly. "I hate that I have an awful temper I can't usually control. I hate it cause it makes me lash out on the ones I need the most." She stared into the fire.
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 23, 2005 18:09:59 GMT -5
He came back down the stairs slowly and just looked at her, wondering if she was going to continue or not. While he understood letting a temper getting away from you, he couldn't recall a time he said things he didn't mean, even in anger. If anything, he tended to be more brutally honest when angry.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 23, 2005 21:35:55 GMT -5
"I don't try to," Lily said quietly, looking into the fire, more of talking to herself than to Drew, not even knowing he was watching her. "It's just when I get angry and I feel so hurt. And when I feel hurt, I want whoever it was that made me angry to feel hurt too. So I say things I don't mean. Even things that aren't true."
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 23, 2005 21:40:07 GMT -5
"So basically your saying that you lied to me for the sole purpose of hurting me," Drew rephrased. "Hurting me when I don't even really know why you're so angry at me to begin with."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 23, 2005 21:44:23 GMT -5
"Because I felt hurt," Lily said. "And I can't stand feeling hurt. Usually when I feel hurt on take it out on myself. But lately, I haven't been able to do that, I can't let myself do that and then I take it out on others. I hate it. I feel like I don't have control over my own emotions."
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 23, 2005 21:53:57 GMT -5
Drew sat down on the bottom step and frowned at the floor, his hands hanging between his knees. "What I don't get is why you all think I should be okay with that excuse," Drew told her. "You make me feel like a putz because I made a promise to be there for you and now you get to make me feel like crap? How is that fair?"
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 23, 2005 21:57:32 GMT -5
"I don't think you should be ok with it," Lily said. "And it's not fair. I feel like such an awful friend, not just now but all the time. I don't deserve to have you as my friend and you'd probably be better off without me, but for some reason you stick by me. And I don't know why."
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 23, 2005 22:52:07 GMT -5
"I don't know either," Drew answered, quietly. He carefully got up and slowly made his way to where she was sitting. He gently nudged her over so he could sit next to her, poking her in the side as he did. "But I do know that it's a heck of a whole lot more than a stupid promise I made."
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 23, 2005 23:04:04 GMT -5
Lily scooted over and offered part of the blanket to him. "Maybe it's magic," she said quietly with a small smile. "But for whatever reason it is, you seem to stick by me. It surprises me. I felt for certain it was the end of the friendship when I kissed you."
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 23, 2005 23:21:14 GMT -5
The small smile that had started to form on his face slipped a notch at the mention of the kiss and suddenly the doubts he had fought for the last month starte d creeping back in. She's mad at you... That's why she didn't come back... If she still loved you she would have found a way, but no, you had to screw it all up...
He nodded in response to Lily, though that was hardly the right answer to her comment.
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Post by hermione7lunaroc on Dec 23, 2005 23:27:17 GMT -5
"You alright Drew?" Lily asked quietly. Dang, she had asked it again. She swore she wasn't going to ask it again. He would only get mad at her. "You went all quiet." She looked down, hoping against all hope that he wouldn't get mad at her.
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