A Letter To Drew ((Open))

[Drew Thornton]

Drew sat there quietly, poking at the lint with his toe. He was getting the distinct impression that he had done or said something wrong again, but for the life of him had no idea what.

[arianna]

Arianna bit her lip, her chest shuddering as she took in a breath of air. She would have had no problem trying to help Drew through whatever problems he was having with Lily. At least then she could go on pretending everything was okay between the two of them.

"You thought I was being stupid, didn't you?" Arianna finally asked quietly and with some effort. "And then...when I was trying to trying to figure out what I'd done and whether I'd embarassed myself in front of the whole school...you had kick me when I was already down. I didn't...I didn't mean for any of it to happen. I just....I...I can't...."

[Drew Thornton]

"I never said you were stupid," Drew answered back, frowning. "I thought you should know better, but I didn't think you were stupid." He wasn't sure exactly what the difference was, but there was one... a big one.

[arianna]

"Right," Arianna muttered. Of course she was supposed to know better! Who knew there could never be a dance at which the food wouldn't be marred by some practical joke or another? Obviously Drew did. Always prepared for the worst. Unlike Arianna, who preferred to be optimistic and believing all was good.

Of course, that way of thinking had never stopped her from feeling like crap a big share of the time.

[Drew Thornton]

He had blown it again and he knew it. He wasn't sure how the conversation had ended up here, but once again, he had said the wrong thing. "Forget it...never mind..." he mumbled, wondering why he had even thought things had been okay with Ari. With a sniffly sigh, he got up from the couch. "I'll see you later..." he told her, just wanting to get out of there as quickly as possible before he made things worse.

[arianna]

Arianna bit her lip even harder as she tried to force herself not to cry. She had been okay. Why did he even pretend to care if things were good between them?

"Sure. Okay," Arianna muttered, burying her face under her arm. Why had she even bothered to help the boy? She should have known it would end up like this. Arianna had been willing to work things out, but how could she when Drew wanted to walk away? She felts as though her friendship with the boy was finally coming to an end. And she had no clue why.

[Drew Thornton]

"I'm sorry I'm such a f***-up..." Drew mumbled, not daring to even look at her. "I'm sorry I've been a crappy friend to you. You were right... I'll just leave you and Lily both alone from now on."

[arianna]

Arianna sniffed. How did it come to this? Dumping both Lily AND her? Sure, she didn't always deserve the way Drew sometimes treated her, but this? Arianna had no clue how she was supposed to handle this.

"If....if that's....that's....what.....you....want," Arianna hiccuped, still forcing herself not to break down but having a time of it. "I...don't.....J-just...want....be.....f-friends.....ag-gain."

[Drew Thornton]

"I don't want it," Drew answered back bitterly. "But why prolong it if all I do is make you feel like crap? It's like me and Lily. She treats me like crap... I treat you like crap... we should cut our losses, right? I don't want to be around if all I do is make you feel bad. I don't want to be that guy."

[arianna]

It was like some sort of bad dream. Arianna felt even worse now than she had when Eion had left, when Nate had been stupid enough to choose Cleo over someone who really cared about him, and again when Nick had left without a word. All the hurt and anger she had felt each time now gathered and multiplied. She hadn't meant for Drew to use her advice with her. Arianna had tried so hard to be a good friend and make up for all the crap she had made the boy go through, but it was all being thrown back in her face now as though it had never mattered.

Sitting up slowly, Arianna lifted a hand to wipe at her tears. There was nothing for her to do but to give one last sniff, give a shaky nod, slide herself off the couch and move quietly to the stairs leading to the girl's dorms, her head down, hair falling over her face. It didn't have to be this way and she knew it. But how could she convince Drew of that?

[Drew Thornton]

He knew she was miserable and he knew that once again, it was his fault. "I don't want to be that guy!" he said again, trying to make her understand. Why would she want to be around someone who always ended up making her cry? It didn't make any snse.

[arianna]

Arianna paused at the bottom of the steps. She took in a few shaky breaths and tried to speak. At first nothing would come out, but she tried again.

"I don't...I don't get it, Drew," she said quietly. "You used to be so...such a nice kid. What happened?"

Before he could even think to answer, though, Arianna headed up the stairs, wondering what in the world she was supposed to do now.

[Drew Thornton]

"That's what I'm saying!" Drew cried out, not even sure if she was listening anymore... or if she even cared what he was trying to tell her. "That's what I've been trying to say! When did I become an a**hole? I DON'T WANT TO BE THAT GUY!"

[hermione7lunaroc]

((It's Lily's fault . . .she turned him all cold and unloving . . .last ooc in this thread I promise . . .))

[Drew Thornton]

{go away. Actually, your ooc gives me the chance to post again without doubleposting }

She didn't answer. Maybe that was for the best. Maybe that's what needed to happen. He cut ties with Lily, Ari cut ties with him. It came full circle.

But it didn't make him feel any better. He wandered back to his chair and slumped into it, staring mornfully into the fire. He tried to tell himself that if he separated himself from Ari, he couldn't make her feel bad anymore. That was a good thing. But still, it felt very very bad.