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Post by Felicity Hjort on Dec 27, 2007 0:47:41 GMT -5
"It can't be about pureblood supremecy Drew," Felicity quickly argued him. "If that's truly what they want, they wouldn't have "attacked" purebloods without a good enough reason. They would've gone after anyone that wasn't a pureblood, not honed in one those they would obviously want joining them if that were the case." Maybe their goal was some sort of supremecy, but it wouldn't have been blood status, otherwise they were going about it the wrong way.
No, the three Drew said were being targeted didn't really matter who they were, but she only knew of one for sure and rumors of a second. He was forgetting, she didn't get the Daily Prophet, and hardly had it at home. Did he forget she told him she didn't really read the paper very often, due to her father inquiring about things and she couldn't lie very well? That was her sole reason for not reading the paper too much, if her dad asked about what was going on, he'd see right through her lie she'd try to tell him. And a lie would be her choice because otherwise he wouldn't have allowed her to go to Hogwarts. Right now, as it stood, she was going to have a hard time coming back the next year. Felicity knew she was changing, her dad would inquire about it. If she lied, or told the truth about what happened, he wouldn't be likely to allow her back.
And by picking who she did, she also chose favourites. Did she not believe students of other Houses were capable of doing whatever job she had planned? And how could she have planned a job for them to do? The woman stormed into the middle of it, doing no one a bit of good, not ever wearing shoes. She chose purebloods, who by Drew's own words, were in less danger than anyone else? Raynor didn't really do anyone a bit of good.
What did he want her to say? Felicity was sticking by what she knew, and at that moment, that was all she felt she had.
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 27, 2007 1:16:25 GMT -5
"No, of course it can't be about blood status," Drew answered, throwing his arms up in an act of helplessness. This was the problem with so many of their arguments. She didn't listen to him, didn't consider for an instant that he might know what he was talking about. If she would just stop arguing his every point, if she would trust that maybe, just maybe, he knew what he was talking about, if she would just try and listen, then maybe things wouldn't be so frustrating between the two of them. How the heck was he supposed to get her to understand anything when she was so dang stubborn and insisting she must be right?
Not about blood status? Well than what in Merlin's name did she think it was all about?
"So that's why Raynor wanted us to destroy the list Ticloon had listing everyone's bloodstatus," he argued back. "That's why Shaw flat out told me to my face, right before he decided I needed a little taste of the Cruciatus Curse, that they were working towards the purification of the wizarding world. No, it's not about Blood Status at all, Felicity."
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Dec 27, 2007 1:30:33 GMT -5
The problem with so many of their arguments? No, she didn't always listen to him, but he didn't put forth much effort when it came to listening to her either about certain things. He just blew them off in a different way, with okay.
However, she didn't think she had to necessarily be right either. It was merely she saw things from a different light that he did. What he had to say didn't make sense. If they were truly about making purebloods above all, they wouldn't have attacked purebloods, not so early in the game. They would've waited, and then gone after those who went most against everything they stood for. The only attack she knew of that wasn't against a pureblood, that being of Drew, was her. And the reason they went after her was because of her own mistakes.
Ready to fire back at him, she stopped. He hadn't ever told her that before. Not once had he mentioned anything about a list dealing with the status of blood of students, nor had to told her what he just did about Shaw. On the other hand, purification did not necessarily mean he was out to make purebloods above all other either. Purification came in many different forms.
"It probably would've helped if you'd told me that sooner," she told him with a little bite to her words. How was she supposed to understand what he had to say if he didn't tell her everything? He constantly had been after her to tell him things so he would understand, and yet he expected her to understand what he thought while holding onto information?
Glancing toward the exit, she wondered how much more angry he would get at her if she left.
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 27, 2007 1:39:54 GMT -5
How many times had he tried to give his opinion, only to be told he was wrong, or he woulnd't understand. Okay, so maybe he didn't always understand, but it would be nice to be given the opportunity instead of being blown off all the time. No wonder he ended up answering with a simple okay. What was the point of arguing?
"I tried," he answered back with a bite of his own. Over the past month and half he had broached the subject a number of times, needing to talk about it now more than ever. "You said you didn't want to talk about it."
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Dec 27, 2007 1:52:31 GMT -5
"I never said I didn't want to talk about what happened to you, nor did I ever tell you I didn't want to talk about what you did," she told him angrily. "I only said I didn't want to talk about what happened to me. I told you I needed time to figure it all out, but I didn't say you couldn't talk to me about anything else. Just because I didn't want to talk about me doesn't mean I wouldn't have listened to what you had to say."
In fact, she couldn't ever remember saying she didn't want to talk about what he went through. Hadn't she listened to him once he told her about it? In fact, she remembered telling him she'd listen when he needed to talk, said she'd talk to him when she needed to. Well, she hadn't felt the need to because it hadn't made any sense until recently, but she didn't say she wouldn't listen to him. At least as long as he didn't try to get her to talk about what she wasn't ready to talk about, and that was what happened to her.
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 27, 2007 2:04:55 GMT -5
No, she hadn't flat out said that he couldn't talk about what happened to him, but that didn't change the fact that he didn't feel like he could discuss it with her.
"You don't see how they're closely related?" he asked, hoping she at least understood how he got that impression. "What happened to me... Well, I saw the connection. You said you didn't want to talk about it and I figured I'd better not go there... so I didn't."
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Dec 27, 2007 2:15:31 GMT -5
What happened to the two of them were completely different things. Different times, for different reasons. What happened to her was because of her own fault, what happened to him was different. He hadn't been the one being stupid about something and possibly getting others hurt. In fact, he hadn't put anyone else in danger like she had. And most definitely not his best mate.
"Drew they were different incidents," she told him, biting back the urge to be angry still. "By the same person, but different. He went after you for what reason he did, he got me because of what I did. It's my own fault what happened to me. I put Celina in danger, you didn't put anyone there. You didn't get your best friend's family threatened because you thought you could do something."
Again, she felt the tears form and slowly begin to fall. How did she have so many stored to be used for one day?
"You're ready to talk about what happened to and I never said you couldn't. I just wasn't ready, but that doesn't mean I wouldn't have listened to you."
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 27, 2007 2:40:58 GMT -5
Again, she argued his point of view, not even considering how he might have seen some sort of connection. Yes, of course they were too different situations, but he saw the link between them and all she wanted to do was argue the differences instead of considering the similarities. He was willing to admit that he might have made a mistake, but was she able to admit that maybe it had been a legitimate one?
"I saw the connection and I didn't want to go there," he mumbled, lowering his head into his hand and tugging at his hair again.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Dec 27, 2007 22:49:30 GMT -5
The only connection Felicity could see was that Shaw had been there. Everything else was different. The blonde didn't see a connection other than Shaw, and it wasn't a strong enough one for her to say there really was a connection.
"What did you see?" she asked Drew quietly, tightening her arms around her waist. What was so similar that she obviously didn't see that he thought was enough to look that horrible about her not understanding? It had to be something more than she could see, or else he wouldn't look like that, wouldn't sound like that. The real question was, what?
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 28, 2007 1:41:49 GMT -5
"The curse..." Drew mumbled back. There were a lot of things that he connected himself to, even down to the destroyed trinkets, but the curse had been the big one. "I could hear you... and I knew it was you. I'm not sure how..." Drew paused, thinking that one of the faceless had mentioned that pretty blonde Gryffindor.
"I remember screaming like that... where you don't even realize it's you at first because... because all you know is... is the pain."
"I know it's different," he continued still looking at the floor. "Celina is like a sister to you... but I trusted Shaw. I'm a thousand miles away from home and he... he was someone I trusted... almost as much as my own dad. We were joking in the greenhouses that night. If he had just asked me for the name then, I would have given it to him and not even thought twice about it."
"I know it's different... I'm not saying it was the same and that's one of the reasons I didn't push it," he told her slowly, finally looking up at her with red eyes. "I did... I understood what you were going through and I didn't want to gloss over that any by claiming mine was the same."
He wasn't sure if that last part made any sense, but it made sense to him. After he had returned Alhana came back at him with a I was cursed too and I got over it, so you need to also. He had always resented that and didn't want Felicity to feel the same towards him. Brilliant job he had done in that department.
"I guess, in a way, I did anyway by trying to make you talk about it," he finished, dropping his head.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Dec 29, 2007 0:59:09 GMT -5
The curse? What had the man even used on her? Felicity didn't know, actually, all she could remember was he pointed his wand at her and said something, but she wasn't sure what it was. All she remembered after that was seemingly never-ending pain and screams. The screams echoed through her head and all around her. Almost as though she'd fallen inside a voice box that could formulate sounds on its own. Celina's voice, and hers. There were others, but those two stood out most. And as she thought about it, Celina's stood out more than her own did.
Celina wasn't just like a sister. She was as close to family as she felt she could get being away from home. True, Drew was a long ways from home, but he had been for a long time. This was Felicity's first time from home at a lengthy period. And another difference was he was given up by someone he trusted. Yes, maybe he had trusted that man, the same one that held the wand pointed at him, but Felicity's best friend had told not only that man, but everyone of what Felicity had planned. And to make things worse, he made a spectactle of Felicity. And not only that, but Felicity couldn't tell her parents without risking what little freedom she had, that being to go to Hogwarts.
What hadn't he pushed? His story on her? That was true. But pushing her? That he had done. She was slightly confused, but maybe it was because she was looking into those eyes of his, and doing her best not to feel something. If she didn't feel something, was it possible she wouldn't cry? The Gryffindor didn't want to, but it wasn't just about wants and she knew that as she felt tears slowly slip down her cheeks.
"You didn't. You didn't really ever say it was the same," she told him. Sure, he'd said there were similarities, but he never said they were the same. Pushing away from the wall, Felicity walked back towards Drew slowly, and sat down on the floor, close to the edge of the blanket, close to him.
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 29, 2007 1:15:09 GMT -5
He heard her move away from the door, and just at the edge of his vison, saw her take a spot by the blanket again. He would have prefered putting his arms around her, but at least it was better than her being inches from the door, ready to leave.
"I'm sorry I tried to make you talk about it," he said, picking at the blanket as he spoke. "I just assumed you needed to get through it the same way I did, and I'm sorry." It had been a roller coaster of emotions since daybreak, and he wasn't too sure how she was feeling, but he was feeling a little better about everything. No, they hadn't fixed a whole lot, but at least it had gotten out there.
"Will you still have dinner with me?" he asked, afraid to meet her eye for what he might see. "I brought the apples like you asked. I was thinking we could roast them if you wanted."
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Dec 29, 2007 1:27:52 GMT -5
Yes, he had assumed that, which she thought he would've learned not to assume with her by now. No, she wasn't mad, she didn't think he should have to ask for forgiveness, but she did wish he would just learn not to assume things. Then again, she needed to learn the same thing. Assumption, plus them, add a problem, and the only end was a fight that put them both in a bad mood.
Nodding, slowly in response, her own eyes followed his nitpicking at the blanket, not entirely sure why he seemed more interested in the cloth than that of her answer. Actually, she thought she knew.
"I will," she answered, "on one condition." Moving a little closer to him, she took his chin and gently turned his face to look at her, hoping his eyes would follow suit. "Promise me, next time you get frustrated with me, you'll tell me so we won't have a really, really big fight."
She hated fighting with him. Liked talking to him when they weren't arguing. Loved when he was smiling. The only way to have him smile, was when they weren't fighting.
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Post by Drew Thornton on Dec 29, 2007 1:36:40 GMT -5
Drew nodded his answer, smiling a little as he looked up at her, relieved that she had agreed, relieved that it felt like this huge fight was finally over. He was going to work on not getting sarcastic when he got frustrated, and he was going to work on listening, and he was going to work on not assuming things. It was a lot to work on, but he thought he could do it.
"You too? You'll tell me?" he asked, knowing there were plenty of times he frustrated her as well. Only difference was she was better at letting him know than he was.
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Post by Felicity Hjort on Dec 29, 2007 1:47:10 GMT -5
Nodding again, she smiled, her eyes on his own. There was something very nice about his smile, and she really liked it. It was catching, more so than a virus, and was much better than any illness. Besides, he looked really adorable when he smiled. Leaning forward, she put her arms around him quickly.
"I promise," she whispered into his ear softly before placing a kiss on his cheek to seal her promise, and retreating. If they were friends, or working on their friendship, she was allowed to do that still, right? She'd done it before they were boyfriend and girlfriend, before they were more than jsut friends, when they really were just friends. Or was it one of those things where he wouldn't like it? She hoped not, because she liked hugging him.
"Can I sit next to you?" she asked, keeping her eyes down in case he got angry at her for what she did.
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